One Evening..

The evening was long, my guesses were true
You saw me see you
That something you said, the timing was right
The pleasure was mine

The time and the place, the look on your face
Sincerest of eyes

If you're ready or not, the state of our hearts
There's no time to take

When we started both brokenhearted
Not believing
It could begin and end in one evening

We were caught by the light
Held on to the day till it became ours
The minutes went by, the cab is outside
There's no time to take

When we parted, moving on
And believing it could begin and end in one evening

=D

Aight, I'm good
School's gonna start and im all revved up..
i gtg

-Ray
MrrY Christmas

Christmas

Christmas is around the corner and it seems like everyone is in the mood with all the shoppings and etc..

Sadly, i don't think i'll be recieving any presents from anyone of my mom's friends this year. They've all left Singapore.. ><"

Tita Ellen was teh shit!!
I literally get something from her everyday! Full set of Harry potter Books,Hotwheels collector's Edition,and alot more. lawl. She got me into the whole harry potter craze lol..

-Ray
Advanced Merry Christmas to one and all
[Please buy me gifts! ]

I spent like 10 minutes writing a good review on the Movie "Good Luck Chuck" and it ends up coming out in Hindi. Awesome!!! Waste of good time.. Well i [C][B][F] to retype all that again..

[World Of WarCraft]
I am quitting the game, for good now. I just woke up and realised that i've been spenidng too much time in my room playing World of WarCraft, when i can put the time to good use like studying,going out or making more "Real Life" Friends..

I've been so hooked onto the game that i used to think about going home just to play it while im still at school.... I just can't take this any longer. I need to get a life!!

*Goes on Trade Channel and let's everyone in the channel know*
TipleDagger[70]:WTB A LIFE! Pst for Offers

Those who play will understand what i mean..[Regarding the Trade channel thing]

I've sold of all my accounts and i'm just going to put all my time into my studies and try to improve my relationship with my classmates and freinds cos i noticed every year i get the same old remarks from my form teacehers regarding my relationship with my classmates and teachers. I'm gonna try and shed off the extra pounds and lose the excess tiers around my tummy and get myself some abs.. (Will prolly take some months to do so,hopefully by June or July 2008) And get myself a God Damn Girlfriend!!!!!

-Ray

गूढ़ लुक्क चुक्क

इफ यू वेरे तो एवर अस्क मी वहत इस अन एक्साम्प्ले ऑफ़ अ ग्रेट मूवी, सोमेथिंग ठाट'एस वोर्थ थे मनी यू पे फॉर ऎंड थे टीम तो watch। इ'डी definately have तो say it'एस "गूढ़ LucK चुक्क"२००७

इ'वे just finished watching it ऎंड it'एस वन ऑफ़ ठोस movies where थे ending इस really awesome ऎंड यू just can't हेल्प but तो smile ऎंड think about it॥

Well थे मूवी sure did leave अ ग्रेट impression। Especially with Jessica Alba इन थे मूवी।But थे मूवी इस related R21 फॉर all थे perfect reason, seriously dont watch it around younger kids... थे Sexual parts इन थे मूवी अरे seriously wicked॥ But ठाट'एस नॉट थे मैं point। थे story line इस really interesting ऎंड ऎंड ऎंड शो'एस people थे true meaning ऑफ़ love।। इ क्नो इ'm नॉट थे राईट person तो tell यू वहत love इस like, since इ haven't really क्नो alot about it yet॥

Here इस Part ४ ऑफ़ थे मूवी।
http://www.veoh.com/videos/v1378608HZ49M25S
ऎन्जॉय

*Clears thorat*
COugh cough

"I now remember why I stopped posting in this blog before. I hate people in general, so why should I allow people to read my life? I think I had forgotten how pretentious and full of themselves, most(not all) bloggers are. Who comments on blog entries from two years ago? Not only comments on them, but says totally unnecessary and cruel things. I have had enough. I seriously doubt I will ever come back here to post again. To be completely honest, I don't think I will miss the opinions of other bloggers that think they are just so much smarter than the average Joe. Some of these comments in the past few days have convinced me that maybe I shouldn't complain at all. At least my life is not so boring that I spend my free time going around to other blogs, and making totally pointless, cruel comments. Actually breaking free from this bullshit, it's quite therapeutic. The rest of you, can enjoy flaming the hell out of each other. You deserve each other. Egomaniacs... "

^^

Okay so i like moved in to my new house today xD

well i didn't exactly came to talk abt that but more of this feeling inside me that's making me really dperessed.. I just know that there's this something im missing and i finnaly found out what it was today while me and my mates were out..

Apparently i really miss Rebecca. I really miss her.. I don't know why but while i was on the bus with andrew this afternoon on our way home made me realise how much rebecca actually meant to me..

I'm really confused about what happened to the both of us.. I really enjoyed her company and she was like the only person i could ever relate to.. I thought we were like Best Friends.. And ugh.. id ont know what happened that day when we met..

damn what i really mean is.. I REALLY MISS YOU... COME BACK AND TALK TO ME...

she's prolly happy with her boy friend already and stuff but.. ugh.. =.=
i jus wanna be good frens again...

well becky i hope to hear frm u soon =)


frm,ur old fren.

[Ray](W) T-T Quit Emoing on me wtf rebecca didn't ignore me lol
27/11/2007 11:14:53 PM XD Andrew [Ray](W) T-T Quit Emoing on me but i say hi she nvr reply
27/11/2007 11:15:47 PM [Ray](W) T-T Quit Emoing on me XD Andrew oh sorry lol
27/11/2007 11:15:50 PM [Ray](W) T-T Quit Emoing on me XD Andrew i just fixed my internet
27/11/2007 11:15:53 PM [Ray](W) T-T Quit Emoing on me XD Andrew haha is she still on?
27/11/2007 11:17:02 PM XD Andrew [Ray](W) T-T Quit Emoing on me dunno
27/11/2007 11:17:05 PM XD Andrew [Ray](W) T-T Quit Emoing on me i go bathe first brb
27/11/2007 11:19:35 PM [Ray](W) T-T Quit Emoing on me XD Andrew oh she's off
27/11/2007 11:19:51 PM [Ray](W) T-T Quit Emoing on me XD Andrew eh i really wanna talk to her
27/11/2007 11:20:00 PM [Ray](W) T-T Quit Emoing on me XD Andrew i mean like serious talk.. tell her all about how i feel for her
27/11/2007 11:26:05 PM XD Andrew [Ray](W) T-T Quit Emoing on me give me awhile i log to my old 1
27/11/2007 11:26:11 PM XD Andrew [Ray](W) T-T Quit Emoing on me see whether she on or not
27/11/2007 11:26:15 PM XD Andrew [Ray](W) T-T Quit Emoing on me now she should still be on..
27/11/2007 11:26:34 PM [Ray](W) T-T Quit Emoing on me XD Andrew i just gave her a testi on frnster
27/11/2007 11:27:26 PM [Ray](W) T-T Quit Emoing on me XD Andrew i told her i miss her
27/11/2007 11:30:16 PM XD Andrew [Ray](W) T-T Quit Emoing on me LOL
27/11/2007 11:30:30 PM [Ray](W) T-T Quit Emoing on me XD Andrew u should see desmond friendster
27/11/2007 11:30:36 PM [Ray](W) T-T Quit Emoing on me XD Andrew damn.. he took her ic adn b eck's ic
27/11/2007 11:30:50 PM [Ray](W) T-T Quit Emoing on me XD Andrew and put next to each other on the beach with a slipper below it
27/11/2007 11:30:55 PM [Ray](W) T-T Quit Emoing on me XD Andrew T_T" i can never get her already
27/11/2007 11:30:56 PM [Ray](W) T-T Quit Emoing on me XD Andrew i lost my chance
27/11/2007 11:34:28 PM XD Andrew [Ray](W) T-T Quit Emoing on me aiya fuck her lar my life is better without her
27/11/2007 11:34:28 PM XD Andrew [Ray](W) T-T Quit Emoing on me LOl
27/11/2007 11:34:37 PM [Ray](W) T-T Quit Emoing on me XD Andrew my life is worthless without her
27/11/2007 11:34:39 PM [Ray](W) T-T Quit Emoing on me XD Andrew today after i reach home
27/11/2007 11:34:44 PM XD Andrew [Ray](W) T-T Quit Emoing on me ur life is always worthless
27/11/2007 11:34:44 PM XD Andrew [Ray](W) T-T Quit Emoing on me LOL
27/11/2007 11:34:45 PM XD Andrew [Ray](W) T-T Quit Emoing on me jkjk
27/11/2007 11:35:00 PM [Ray](W) T-T Quit Emoing on me XD Andrew i noticed that my house was alreayd being ransacked.. so i was like super emo.. so i lay down while the movers did shit.. and i thought to myself
27/11/2007 11:35:42 PM [Ray](W) T-T Quit Emoing on me XD Andrew what happened between the bot of us? we had something great going on.. and it disapearead just like tat after we met each other face to face.. i mean i said to myself wold it be better if i hadn't met her instead
27/11/2007 11:36:08 PM [Ray](W) T-T Quit Emoing on me XD Andrew i mean.. i really really thought something great was going to happen.. she made me feel so happy... she's something.. and she's the only girl that's made me feel this way before
27/11/2007 11:36:22 PM XD Andrew [Ray](W) T-T Quit Emoing on me gd for u
27/11/2007 11:36:24 PM XD Andrew [Ray](W) T-T Quit Emoing on me tell her that
27/11/2007 11:36:38 PM [Ray](W) T-T Quit Emoing on me XD Andrew no 1 has like ever ever.. made me feel this way.. it's like i'm .. i'm just so......
27/11/2007 11:36:47 PM XD Andrew [Ray](W) T-T Quit Emoing on me TELL HER THAT
27/11/2007 11:37:05 PM [Ray](W) T-T Quit Emoing on me XD Andrew i don't know it's hard to explain this feeling in words.. and i'm not being like ugh.. u know erm.. how do u call that.. like tooa ction
27/11/2007 11:37:19 PM XD Andrew [Ray](W) T-T Quit Emoing on me ya ok ok
27/11/2007 11:37:21 PM XD Andrew [Ray](W) T-T Quit Emoing on me TELL HER LAr
27/11/2007 11:37:23 PM XD Andrew [Ray](W) T-T Quit Emoing on me ...
27/11/2007 11:37:34 PM [Ray](W) T-T Quit Emoing on me XD Andrew but i really mean what i say... i don't care if we can't make it together in life.. i just want her as afriend i just want what we used to do the last time back again
27/11/2007 11:37:52 PM [Ray](W) T-T Quit Emoing on me XD Andrew u khnow how fun iut was to talk to her.. just seeing her online and spamming at me.. wow i tell u it was like MSN WAS MY NO.1 fan
27/11/2007 11:38:20 PM XD Andrew [Ray](W) T-T Quit Emoing on me hmm u think i dun 1?
27/11/2007 11:38:21 PM XD Andrew [Ray](W) T-T Quit Emoing on me lol
27/11/2007 11:38:24 PM XD Andrew [Ray](W) T-T Quit Emoing on me fuck man
27/11/2007 11:39:00 PM [Ray](W) T-T Quit Emoing on me XD Andrew It's really.. painful to lose a friend.. people like rebecca dn't just appear like that for no reason
27/11/2007 11:39:10 PM [Ray](W) T-T Quit Emoing on me XD Andrew i mean..they don't come and go like other chicks..
27/11/2007 11:39:21 PM [Ray](W) T-T Quit Emoing on me XD Andrew she's special.. she's a great friend and alot more..
27/11/2007 11:39:26 PM [Ray](W) T-T Quit Emoing on me XD Andrew kay imputting this on my BLOG XD
27/11/2007 11:40:03 PM XD Andrew [Ray](W) T-T Quit Emoing on me ..
27/11/2007 11:40:04 PM XD Andrew [Ray](W) T-T Quit Emoing on me LOL
27/11/2007 11:40:39 PM [Ray](W) T-T Quit Emoing on me XD Andrew T_T i <3/MISS REBECCA LOH
27/11/2007 11:40:44 PM XD Andrew [Ray](W) T-T Quit Emoing on me aiya fuck u
27/11/2007 11:40:49 PM XD Andrew [Ray](W) T-T Quit Emoing on me stop making me think of her
27/11/2007 11:45:04 PM [Ray](W) T-T Quit Emoing on me XD Andrew see even u
27/11/2007 11:46:19 PM XD Andrew [Ray](W) T-T Quit Emoing on me i just miss some1 to talk to on msn
27/11/2007 11:46:25 PM XD Andrew [Ray](W) T-T Quit Emoing on me fuck man now msn like ghost
27/11/2007 11:46:26 PM XD Andrew [Ray](W) T-T Quit Emoing on me LOL
27/11/2007 11:46:28 PM [Ray](W) T-T Quit Emoing on me XD Andrew yes
27/11/2007 11:46:29 PM [Ray](W) T-T Quit Emoing on me XD Andrew agree
27/11/2007 11:46:30 PM [Ray](W) T-T Quit Emoing on me XD Andrew same lah
27/11/2007 11:46:33 PM [Ray](W) T-T Quit Emoing on me XD Andrew i want her back
27/11/2007 11:46:43 PM XD Andrew [Ray](W) T-T Quit Emoing on me but she dun 1 talk to me then nvm lor
27/11/2007 11:46:47 PM XD Andrew [Ray](W) T-T Quit Emoing on me can live without her

can't blame them.
13year old<- makes a god fuck.
but they're too old.. T_t PEADOPHILE

starship loser


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WOW.
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Normally i'd agree to a blowjob by any chick. or a handjob..
But in this guy's case.. he's a real dumb ass.. Lol


BTW
my cousin albert frm filipins is coming tmrw to singapore xD :D:D:D:D:D:D
so excited i dont have to do any housework anymore!!!!!!!!!!! he does everything
including moving the furniture and etc.. :D:D:D:D

another hilarious shit..


u really gotta pity the lil baby.. wonder wad happened to her..


even thou the crank tat shit sucks. travis made it teh shit! xD


HAHHAHAHAHAHAHA OFMFG
CANT CONTROLV ERYY FUNNY OMFG


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Some Motherfucker stole my fucking Limited Edition Nike Dunk Low CL just right outside my house while i was asleep for only 6 hours..

I didn't use it for 2 days cos it was hurting me whilst i was at work so i used my Air Fore Premium lows.. T_T oh god damn it...And i was only 6 days away frm moving my house... WHY COULDN'T THEY WAITTT.. bloody motherfuckers..

Rule no1. FOr living in a HDB
1: DONT EVER LEAVE UR FUCKIGN SHOE OUTSIDE

just got back from the hospital.. Head iNjury

I often do things, that get me into situations that I didn't consider before I started. I was just thinking earlier today, that one of the reasons I took a long break from blogging before, was the fact that people starting reading what I wrote. Which might sounds a bit nuts, considering I post what I write on the web, but it's how I feel sometimes. I guess, just like in real life, I don't like too many people getting to know me, and I am more honest here than in my day to day life.

Very personal. I doubt this will make much sense to anyone but me. This is for me, so I guess that doesn't really matter then does it?

I don't know why I always think that if I try hard enough, I will never have times like these. Like if I could just pay attention, I will some day learn what the exact moment is that triggers this. I used to feel bad about how I acted when I get like this. Anymore, I think this is just who I am, and I honestly mean what I say when I feel this way. Just because most people are too "polite" to tell the truth, doesn't mean it doesn't sometimes need to be said. I don't really care if that makes me the asshole.

I have been having such terrible days. I just don't care. I know that I am being abrasive. I know I am being impatient, irritable, and mean. I have very little patience for incompetence, even on the best of days. Times like this, I have none.

To B: If you don't want to do it, and do it right, shut up and let someone else do it. Don't half ass something, and then get pissed when someone else goes back and redoes your work. Don't get mad because I work circles around you. Stop pouting when things don't go exactly like you think that they should. If you weren't such a bitch, and didn't spend so much time worrying about everyone else's business, you might have more time to do a better job. Have you every thought that the reason you think nobody likes you, is because they don't. Have you ever thought that maybe since you have a problem with everyone, then maybe the real problem is you? Worry about your own business, stop talking about everyone behind their back, and quit kissing ass to someone's face and putting a knife in their back. If you could do all of that, maybe you might not be so miserable and might actually grow a life of you own.

I used to get so upset after a had a day like today. I would worry that someone didn't like what I said. If someone got mad at me, I would blame myself, because I am the one that's nuts, I must be wrong. It just hit me, that just because I have some problems, doesn't always make me wrong. It might make me at bit more blunt with my delivery that I should be, but you really shouldn't push buttons, unless you want to see what they do. Sure, I might have always backed down in the past, but maybe I've had enough. I used to feel like I needed friends so bad, that I would settle for anyone that would talk to me. Maybe I realized that I would rather be friendless than to let you push me around, in your subtle way.

I don't care. I am so exhausted from lack of sleep. I am so angry at ....everything. I am so sensitive.

I don't have time for chit chat. You don't really care how I am, so why bother asking? It's just these stupid games that we play with each other, where we can feel better about ourselves. How are you? Fine. And you? Pretty good. If I told you how I was really feeling, you would probably avoid me as much as possible in the future. My own family doesn't want to know when I feel like this. Why? Because if they don't know, they don't have to worry about it. They don't have to pretend to relate, when they really have no idea. Or even worse, try to convince me that if I wanted to, I could just snap out of it. Trust me, nobody feels like this, if they have a choice.

A nice middle ground would be nice. How is middle ground again? It's been so long since I've seen it, I forgot. I remember it's nice and I like it there. I hope that it hasn't forgotten about me. If effort alone could do it, I would already be there. I've just got to hold on. This too shall pass. It always does. And then again, it always comes back...


All night hearing voices telling me
That I should get some sleep
Because tomorrow might be good for something

Hold on
Feeling like I'm heading for a
breakdown
And I don't know why

But I'm not crazy, I'm just a little unwell
I know right now you can't tell
But stay awhile and maybe then you'll see
A different side of me

I'm not crazy, I'm just a little impaired
I know right now you don't care
But soon enough you're gonna think of me
And how I used to be


From: "Unwell" by Matchbox Twenty

WTF IS A HOLIDAY FOR IF U STILL GOTTA GO TO SCHOOL!

***Notice of Account Closure***

Account Name: Tridagerx
Offense: Unapproved Third Party Software

A third party program is any file or program that is not a part of the World of Warcraft software, but is used to gain an advantage in the game, such as increasing your movement speed or teleporting from one place to another beyond what is allowed by game design. It also includes any programs that obtain information from the game that is not normally available to the regular player or that transmit or modify any of the game files. Normally, this classification does not include UI modifications, except those UIs that require an external application to function.

Any external applications that are used in conjunction with World of Warcraft can cause quite a few unwanted side effects. Some of the major possible results of the use of third party programs can be instability of the game to the point that a player "crashes" from the game quite often. External programs can also be used to transmit viruses, spyware, and other unwanted programs into a player's computer. Third party programs can also be used to obtain information from the player's computer, such as account, password, and personal information.

If a player is found to have used such a program, he/she may:

* Be temporarily suspended from the game
* Have further action taken, up to and including account closure, based on the intent of the program

Access to the World of Warcraft account Tridagerx, and any World of Warcraft account associated with the payment information you have provided, has been permanently disabled. The account has been identified as having used unauthorized game modifications and thus is in violation of the World of Warcraft Terms of Use. The recurring subscription on the account has been disabled to prevent further charges.

Please review the World of Warcraft Terms of Use at http://www.worldofwarcraft.com/legal/termsofuse.html, which you accepted when you installed World of Warcraft and established the account(s). Section 2, Paragraph C details the limitations of game play modifications and use of any third-party or “packet sniffing” software. In addition, Section 3, Paragraph C, parts iii and iv restrict the use of any hack, scripting or macroing software which obtains information from World of Warcraft to gain a competitive advantage over other players.

Furthermore, any activities not intended by game design which affect the economy, the client, player characters or the world itself have a tremendous negative impact on the potential enjoyment for all players. The effects of these activities take many forms including a bloated game economy, server instability, and allowing unauthorized access to accounts, computers, and player data.

As a result, the account(s) will no longer be accessible and will not be reopened under any circumstances.

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Thank you for your understanding in this matter and respecting our position and all statutes within the World of Warcraft Terms of Use.

Regards,

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Bye Bye my level 70 BT Equipped Warrior.
I'm uber Emo now.. T_T ...
it's forever gone from the EU armory...

I was like on my hunter. and checkurcheek whispered me sum bt gears. and i told him 1 of the bows dropped when we downed illidan. and he asked for my warrior's name i gave it to him.. he went on armory, checked and found out it wasn'tt here so he came back and called me a lier. i told him i'd get the link personally. and i couldn't find my warrior. so i was like wtf? i tried logging onto account manager.. and my acc was banned.. i was like ofmg wat did i do now i havent loged onto my warrior in like months. and... i saw my emaill and this shit was here.. cos my warrrior is on a notehr email im like omfg mudafuckers...fark blizz.. T_T...

rAY. btw i scked at my xams results.. dont ask.. ill tell when im feeling better....

The Journey from 1 - 70.
Would make a great composition especially for my exams.
lets pray i can somehow fit the topic into the exam question :(

I am writing this letter to you, to a shrouded unknowingness, a deep scar left upon my soul--that, which seems to have been an obscurity and the only reason for traveling through this maze of green walls. Before I ever realized it, I had become so engrossed and drawn to this enigma of the darkness. I am now arriving at the inner station. This has been a captivating and intriguing experience thus far, and to realize it is not yet over, utterly exhausts me. I have only eight miles to meet you, the gaping hole in my soul. The quietness of the green wall and motionlessness of the river is eerie, almost unsettling--the movement in the bushes became numb with an unnatural sleep. I am now sleeping this unnatural sleep as well; the air in my chest shortens and deepens, as if it were a foreboding omen lying ahead in the foggy darkness. Nearly two months I have been on this voyage, waiting, to meet you, a vague obscurity in my reality--I have seen more than I would like to see. This has turned into an atmosphere of death, death has followed life, it now awaits it, it peers at us, simply waiting, patiently. Like a snake waiting to strike, devour its prey, it waits for us. And like its prey, I have questioning life and death. Death; illness; both are misinterpreted approaches to death. You must wonder what I am speaking of; as do I, I will notify you the moment that I find the answer in this sea of doubt. I do not intend to mail this letter off because it is mostly for me. So, with this being said, I would like to describe my version of “Kurtz,” the Kurtz that I believe is the plug to this hole.

I am in the Jungles of Africa searching for you. I have traveled hundreds of miles to see you; I have survived attacks to see you; I have seen death, torture and slavery to see you; I have seen what, I hope, no other man should be allowed to see, simply to see You. You, you is a he whom I believe I may never see. You, to me, are a revelation, and in reality, revelations are not seen or heard with the senses-instead they are only perceived. That is what You are to me. A truth, a feature of this world-a gateway to another dimension that contains only darkness. The truth may be too hard for the human heart to endure. He is of enigmatical character, or so says the Russian man, the one with blue eyes. This Russian man is confused, I believe, which I may only believe to be my own foreshadowing of what is to come. This foreshadowing is an image of my boat, pushing along these green walls, along this muddy river, though this Fog, though Death, and trying to make sense of it all, but not being able to. Similar to predicting the future, the outcome can only be guessed, inaccurately. However, stating that all my experiences make no sense--now, I do understand that. Shall I bow to my knees when I meet the fateful hand of his?

So, I hear that you are ill; you have my sympathies; however, the bulk of my sympathies go to my helmsman, who, by the way, is dead by your attack. I had his rose-red blood spilling on my shoes--the spear that messed my shoes came from your people. Getting to You was not worth losing a man whom I have given recognition to, but it’s a bit too late. This angers me. Your timing could not have been worse. The helmsman was my partner; when I looked into his cold, expired eyes, we had a moment where time stood still and we became friends. Then I had to take my shoes off and through him overboard because of the cannibals I’m traveling with.

To you, Kurtz, I am ready to feel sorry for myself and address the sympathy that is within me. I am weak, yes. I have weaker morals than you, yes. However, does that make me any less of a person? So, is my destiny to travel down this deathful river into the heart of the Truth that you somehow may represent; and if so I hope that perhaps when I do come to your side, and, bow if need be, I will shake your hand and you will give me answers. Answers for my quest. You may tell me what you know about life, and love, and the existence of humanity-- the role evil and lightless matter have in the universe-- and how this oily mess spills from the hearts of men, and why. Why have I followed the path of liquid bordered by hollows of darkness and fog? And why I have passed dead corpses strewed along the forest floor like flowers in a meadow, death pouring like vapor from their gaping mouths, to get to you? Why have I embarked on this endeavor, simply to meet You? Crickets and fish and owls singing, and sprouting with life, hammered down by the presence of some ominous deathly aura that I feel may emanate from your being all throughout the Congo stretch. Why have I ventured so, and what is the purpose of this letter, but to try to let my mind grasp its existence? Oh, all these questions and the curiosity to find out! And so, you ask me... have I straightened my thoughts a bit--to perhaps make this voyage a bit more bearable without my questions haunting me so? And my answer for you, sir, is no. I suppose I will have to wait.

You were everything I wanted.
You were everything a girl could be.
Then you left me brokenhearted
Now you don't mean a thing to me
All I wanted was your
Love love love love love love

Hate is a strong word
But I really really really don't like you
Now that it's over
I don't even know what I liked about you
Brought you around
And you just brought me down.
Hate is a strong word.
But I really really really don't like you.

I really don't like you.

Thought that everything was perfect
Isn't that how it's supposed to be?
Thought you thought that I was worth it
Now I think a little differently
All I wanted was your
Love love love love love love


Would like to apologise bout my previous post on my teacher miss yvonne chong AGAIN..
and tat was bulshit bout the measuring my dick and shit..

:D lol

It's the September holidays.. Exams are gnnna start soon.
:D I'M LEVEL 63 on my Nightelf Hunter in WoW.
I think Grace Leong is soo hawt and cute.
Eatin Oreos and dwnloading songs.
Btw my Speakers PWN THE ASS Out of anything! :D
Subwoofers are the shit of all shit.
I h4x0rz Games..
My AmATHS STill sucks.
I got nothing better to do..
and sorry for not updating

-Ray/Dick
btw i still think of Rebecca and do talk abt her.
btw i apologise for umm all those fckign prank calls frm me freinds :D wish u all the best!

MISS YVONNE CHONG Is SOO SCARED OF ME! SHE KEEPS REFUSING TO TEACH OUR CLASS..!! HAHHAHA OWNED! PWNED. and i wont accept any other reason ur gonna give :D oh yeh i forgive u for ur past mistakes its all cool :)

This is the potential gay song. :) :) :) :) :) :) :)
wE GOT a along dick till u take that. now all i want is my dildos back. did u get tat? lemme repeat that. I want my dildos back!>.<"
This blog has officially been trashed by Dick..

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( )( ) MY COCk's almost 5 inches..:D Measured it. and i shaved.. :] *nananana* the Pong ping song..

woots.. Long time!! haha haven't updated yeh.
Well i'll guess i have to summarise everything i've been through in just one post!

Life is pretty rock at the moment. I'm at the 3rd term of school, and i still havent pulled up my socks and go look for a tuition teacher, instead i'm just lazing around at home playing computer games (World Of WarCraft). God i really i've got a computer addiction!

My dad has finnaly moved out of his old shop in Q'way 01-28 after like umm 28 over years i suppose which is a very long time.. He's shifted to another unit at the second floor 02-05, which is uber boring to be at..The Traffic Flow of customers just ain't right!.

School!!Yeah got loads to rant about!!Especially about Yvonne! Guesss what? She's not teaching our class English anymore,it's sort of a dissapointment and a relief.. The class misses her dearly and all of them are blaming me for the loss of their beloved teacher, i honestly don't give a damn about it lol! Instead i got a fresh piece of meat to fry now :D I got Olivia Oon.. :D She's English, by that i mean british of course. She's not too bad looking.. I like the way she says my name in class, she over does it by pronouncing the Dique ( too fast). But still we do get to see her for Music Lessons every Tuesday, which is tomorrow.

The Inter Class soccer competition is up and going right now.. Recruitment for the class has started and i'm the " Captain"*cough* A lousy captain. Yeah i suck at soccer big time! But sadly this year our class doesn't have the right players we used to have when we were back in sec 2 and 1.. We had those superstars " Zasli,Haikal,Yan,Tien Yue,Caleb. Lol. But at least we've got Marc,Ishpal,Hong Tai and a good keeper Andrew..(Although i hate to admit it, Andrew makes a really good keeper. We've been having regular practices lately, cos we just don't wanna lose. BADLY!! yeah we're gonna lose fer sure! But just hope it won't be a really bad lose.

Home.. My house is mess up. My mom and me have been hunting for some good cheap condos around the area, cos the owner of this shitty apartment wants us out..Yeah i've seen some good ones.. Just that my dad ain't helping out with the tight budget he's got. But i hope he makes do with whatever he can afford to spend at the moment.
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Well i've gotta go play my game now!I'll keep you guys updated though. hopefully at least once a month

I couldn’t give a damn whether the chicken or the egg came to existence
first.
My inquiry is along the line of colors, fruits and the meaning of life.
Surprisingly I have found an interesting liaison concatenating these three
elements.

Consider the orange fruit. The flagrant joyous delicacy that flourishes
within the trees of Florida and is encapsulated within crates on the
doorsteps of the people in america each winter. Perfectly orbed, as if it was the
emanation of a master meatball roller, the orange fruit is a gem amongst the
fallible bananas, mangos and apples of the times.

There is no question about the consummate and old reliable orange fruit. It
is round. You can count on it. Underneath the barrier of the orange fruits
contemptible peel, the corpulent segments of the bountiful globe are genial
and relishing... Hence, I perceive the orange fruit as an
excellence in its kind. In delineating this fruit I cannot help but come
across a conundrum of question to the color of the orange fruit. Seventy-two out of
Eighty people commuting the streets of Orchard Road on a given Saturday
afternoon will agree that the color of the orange fruit is, infact, the color
“orange.”

Did the color orange exist before the orange fruit came to exist? Let us
say that the color of orange existed first. Some plant germinating science
freak of 9999BC colors the Purple Fruit a shade of orange... therefore it
shall be christened “Orange Fruit.” Or on the opposition, let us say that there was
a Special Fruit. A man discovered that his neighbors face was the color of the
Special Fruit. The Special Fruit’s color was named Orange after the neighbor,

Mr. Gregory Orange. The name of the Special Fruit was gradually conceived
from the name of Mr. Gregory Orange because, hey, the fruit is orange just
like his face.

Where ever did the color and fruit cross? Was it so simple as a
misunderstanding and mocking of a certain Mr. Gregory Orange? Surely
there is a purpose for the two elements to be so intertwined in one another's
meanings. For the fruit and the color shall ever be cooperatively defined as:
A reddish-yellow color. That is all.

Classrooms become fashion shows where meaningless discussions of
music, sports and entertainment proliferate. Hallways become brutal
canvases where the self-proclaimed “incrowd” can paint a masterpiece of
cruelty and ostracization with fear of receiving the same type of contempt,
prejudice, violence, anger. One must contend with the fact that they are
fruitless, burdensome and useless in a world of beautiful, happy people.

I am merely a pawn, a stepping stone, that is used for others triump hant parades.
Sometimes we have to find out for ourselves who we are. Existing is
not enough. We must question our purpose. For it is not until then that we
know what we ought to do. Any Orange Fruit certainly has a lot of thinking
to do as to it’s own purpose, as it’s identity is stolen by a member of the
prism. As I sit and watch life through a looking glass I question: Did I
bring life or did life bring me? Which came first... Me or Life? And where ever
was the point that the two of us crossed? ... I do not recall any instances.

haha look at the time..
super late eh? well this is how it's been so far during the holidays.. work in the day gaming at night.. Rest for a couple of hours before going back to whatever i'm supposed to be doing.
[PC SHOW]
Recently i've been to the PC show in Suntec City twice so far, once with khamin which was on the 2nd day and with my mom on the last day. Loads of cheap memory cards and computer stuff. I bought a 2.1 Speaker for my room and a Razer Mouse + ExactMat free. My dad bought a 32" LCD Tv and a Home theatre system for my mom as her birthday gift..
[Mom's Birthday]
Oh yeah talking bout my mom's birthday! It's her birthday today :P I'd like to wish her a Happy Birthday and i apologise for all the nasty things i'v done to you and all the things that i've done that has brought our family down.. Nothing will ever bring us back to our previous lifestyle but let bygones be bygones. Hopefully things MIGHT change for the better. I honestly love you and i really don't wanna see you angry with me all the time. You get angry for all the small things but it means a whole lot of a deal for u.. Happy Birthday
[Holidays]
Holidays, my dad's suppose to bring us out on a road trip to Malaysia, for the first time in my life im going somewhere either than Kuala Lumpur and Johor.. But apparently, my dad dosen't know how to drive to Malaysia and he's certainly not gonna ask anyone else to drive our car! Especially in Malaysia.. Life's a bitch eh? now we'll probably go by the stinking bus.
[Grades]
I haven't really been studying lately nor thinking bout my homework and revision.. My grades are really dissapointing for the first time in my life i haven't reached at least the top 5 in level and class.. It's realy dissapointing.. But i shouldn't be surprised cos at the rate that i'm going with my gaming addiction i'm bound to go Poly and not JC. Gotta put more effort in that.
[LOVE]
haha you know i've got something to admit.. I loved Rebecca.. kk there's a ed in there! I thought we had something special but apparently she just wanted to be friends well its okay! :D She's not the type who looks at someone's inner self but she's more focused on first impression. Seriously.. i hate it when i just don't do all those romantic stuff girls expect of you when ur crushing on them.. Well I'm starting to move on with life, she hasn't talked to me much lately and i don't think she'll want to. She's probably stopped looking at my blog so its kinda' safe i guess to say this " I REALLY LOVED YOU!"


Let's go to the park
I wanna kiss you underneath the stars
Maybe we'll go too far
We just don't care
You know I love it when you're loving me
Sometimes it's better when it's publicly
I'm not ashamed I don't care who sees
Us hugging and kissing; our love exhibition, oh.
We'll rendezvous out on the fire escape
I'd like to set off an alarm today
The love emergency, don't make me wait
Just follow I'll lead you
I urgently need you, oh.
If we keep up all this fooling around
We'll be the talk of the town
I'll show the world all my love anytime
Let's open the blinds
'Cause we really don't mind.
Oh, I don't care about propriety
Let's break the rules; ignore society
Maybe our neighbours like to spy, it's true
So what if they watch when we do what we do, oh.

i've got sore eyes.. pass keeps coming out
my mouth is full of phlem. I've got green mucus
The pain in my head is painstaking. I scream in agony when i cough
I've got a fever with sore eyes and a sore throat..


I'm sitting here playing World OF wARcRAFT


DICK HAS OFFICIALY NO FUCKING LIFE.:D
Thanks to WORLD OF WARCAFT
May many more people be addicted to this fucking game

I’m sick of picking the pieces
And second-guessing
My reasons why you don’t trust me
why must we do this to one another?
We are just passionate lovers
With trouble under the covers
Nothing worse than when
You know that it’s over
I just need a little of your time
A little of your time
To say the words I never said
Just need a little of your time
A little of your time
To show you that I am not dead
Please don’t leave, stay in bed
Touch my body instead
Gonna make you feel it
Can you still feel it?
Gonna make you feel it
Can you still feel it?
Well I’ve got nothing to hide
Dip down and come for a ride
I’m racing the devil, so sly
You cannot hear’em coming
Cause my defenses are weak
I have no breath left to speak
So take the evidence
And bury it somewhere
Oh my, I don’t mind
Being the other guy
Nice try, for these games
I do not have the time
If you want me, call me
Come and take a risk
Kiss me somewhere deep below the surface

iT'S NOT my fault! u both deserve it. i caught u with another 1 in my bed...

My dad has to know how much i love him.. I cry everytime he'd leave the house. I crawl up to him and pull his pants, begging him not to leave that was when i was young..Nowadays i'd just say.."So fast? You're leaving so soon?" I'm used to it.. I don't feel anything, I'm just numb. He used to give me reasons like i've got to go do my night shift and say stuff like he works as a security guard. i'd ask him why he had to when he's already leading a good life and working so hard in the day.He'd just brush me off and make me forget about it. Now I've grown up and know the reason why..

How can he put his other family and job infront of me? I feel like dirt.. I'm not treated equally.. Yeah he spends loads of money on me but i just dont want money. I want a father figure. sumone i'd look up to..

You must think I'm a fool
So prosaic and awkward and all
D'you think you've got me down?
D'you think I've never been out of this town?

Do I seem too eager to please to you now?
You don't know me at all
I can't turn it on, turn it off like you now
I'm not like you now

Now you're here
I bet you're wishing you could disappear
I'm trying to be kind
I get the feeling you're just killing time

You look down on me
Don't you look down on me now
You don't know me at all
A slap in the face
In the face for you now
Just might do now

You're leaving so soon
Never had a chance to bloom
But you were so quick
To change your tune
Don't look back
If I'm a weight around your neck
Cos if you don't need me
I don't need you

I recieved my pay today from my dad. but he still didn't give me exactly what i required.How typical of him? I've been working my ass of these past 2 days.. and working for a bloody low pay..
$20 per day
no lunch
no break
11am-10pm

........ pathetic!!!
long working hours no break no lunch. but there's tea and hot milo:P well at least i do get money.. getting money from my dad is hard nowadays.. at least i've got $50 now.. + $20 more tommorrow.. as he promised.. (he always breaks his promise)..

well i'll be getting my A Maths exam marks tommorrow and i know im so gonna fail it.. BADLY....haha couldn't even finish solving 1 question :S!!! I'll be using the money to go buy sum hair dye and dye my hair.. can't wait for my natural colour to grow back.. not sure of the colour though probably sumthing brown.. my dadd is so gonna kill me though if he finds out :P i know him!!

I've also got ideas to go ahead and buy a new World OF WarCraft account again. but i dont have a friggin stable internet connection so what's the god damn point?? yeah but i still want wow!! i hunger for wow.. i'll just call starhub next week:S haha
Oh and.. my dad said he's gonna check on my money once in a while. cos he's forbidding me to buy any games.. yeah so im gonna be so screwed if he finds out tat i've got money missing.. It's my own frigging money why the hell is he so kpo!!

I'm really missing the good old days where i would sit on my comp like a fucking zombie and play till night... muahah while listening to stacy orrico's - i'm not missing you.. haha i'd be tottaly engrosed in my WORLD of Warcraft that i actually forget about the world.. i ain't missing it while im in a better world.. :P ( tottaly didnt make sense but what the hell.. as long as it gets out of my head im ok with it)
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pa and internet

GOD the frigging exams are finnaly over!! But i still don't have my iternet? I tried talking to my dad about it yesterday

dick: pa, u know the iternet come back lerh
pa: u called starhub again?
dick: no larh wat for? its alreadi been 4days since the itnernet came back
pa:u called right?
dick:no seriously. ma was usin the laptop then i asked her to try plugin the ethernet wire see if got internet, then got...
pa: when u call?
dick: = =.. but not every website can go.. i cant visit other site except for yahoo.com and msn.com
pa: u better not call im telling you.
dick: why?
pa:so u had the idea to call?
dick: no i never call i swear..
pa: but u had the intention of doing so right
dick: err yeah..
pa: u better not call, i'm going to tell them that i never agreed to connect the internet..
dick: kk
pa: this can become a police case im warning you.. you better not try anything funny
dick: WHAT THE HELL.. OK OK watever

= = so now? how the fuck am i spose to get my iternet???
(i didn't actually spoke that way but u get wat i mean of cos)

sorry guys can't update in the meantime.. My internet got cut off.. cos of my exams and cos of the trouble i've been getting into lately.. yeah. so ill probably get it back after my exam..


I'm at Fifi's house.. Blogging.. using her comp.. lol finished watching sum gay fucked up movie called." the boggey man.." .. exciting part comes after 1hour and 46 mins.. which is the ending..

lol? i've got physics tomorrow but i really dont care... Physics = Shit.. i hate it.. i prefer chemistry.. i need to score sum good grades man.. dang.. oh.. and today's exam was geography which was like uber madly fucking insanely ezz.... :D

finished section b after 20mins..and i did every question..but we're only spose to do 2.. so i ended up choosing question 2 and 4.. :D but i spent 40mins doing section A.. which is map reading.. map reading = WASTE OF TIME.. like we're even gonna read sum fucking maps wen we grow up ? yeahright..

well.. im going back down to go play ps2..

FUCK!! I WROTE A LONG APOLOGY LETTER AND NOW ITS FUCKING GONE.. STUPID BLOGGER.COM.... FUCK MY INTERNET BROWSER! WASTED 40MINS TRYING TO THINK OF SOMETHING GOOD TO SAY. WHAT THE FUCK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


MAIN THING I WANTED TO SAY WAS IM FRIGGIN GOD DAMN SORRY! .. FUCK BLOGGER.. I HATE U SHIT FUCK !!! WASTED MY TIME FOR TAT GAY APOLOGY LETTER.. KK NOT GAY., BUT WATF!!

Here's the Funny Video clip for this week
David Blaine Street Magic U TUBE EDITION
loads of the videos are circling youtube. go check it out
heres one

YVONNW

Ho Ho...
Yvonne strikes again. EXTRA.. EXTRA!! Read all about IT
Yet again she hasn't failed to ruin my life.. The whore, actually read ma blog? and i thought she had forgotten all about it..Yeah..She called my dad, told my dad, about my blog and everything tat was inside. forcing me to, change the url which is currently diquehead.blogspot.com. Well this is temporary, i'll revert it back to complacentkid after the Jun holidays. Yvonne dearest here wanted me to make a public apology to her, which i'd glady have no problem doing, just tat i won't be sinciere and i wont mean it... Muahhaha but she couldn't make me,cos she knows that i wont mean it and it's just fucking pointless. :D good move there bitch!!

Today during, her same, pointless,boring,mediorcre class... haha She brought me to Mr John Lim, Dang! She broke my spree.. I haven't been brought to him since like.. last year? and he's been praising me all this while.. till Yvonne brought me to his attention.. She not only told him about me flaming her online, but she also told him about me scodling the principal and calling her unfit to be the one... WTF? Why can't she just fuckin leave me alone? At least, i only scolded her online and not in school.. I just go to school and carry on with her lessons asuming tat there's no problem whatso ever. but there she goes again, trying to be the fucking extra bitch on the block... WHY CAN'T SHE JUST FUCKING LEAVEEEE ME AND MY BLOG ALONE I prefer to be left alone u whore incase u dont know/didn't notice!!

So now.. i'm probably gonna get caning, she said she'll make SURE of that!! FCK THE WHAT?????? u think i care? woot tats it 1 cane and im off!! :D (You're super pathetic) and she's also gonna sue me for defamation.. yeah suure bitch go ahead. if u really want charity from me fine? go ahead by all means i've got loads of cash to spare u u know.. but why take the trouble to bring it to court.. u can ask me for money anytime.. i ain't poor like u slut! I STILL THINK UR A SLUT. U THINK WAT UR GONNA DO IS GONNA STOP ME? WELL HELL NO! I AIN'T GONNA STOP WAT I wanna do! FUCK U WHORE!!!

In law, defamation is the communication of a statement that makes a false claim, expressly stated or implied to be factual, that may harm the reputation of an individual, business, product, group, government or nation. Most jurisdictions allow legal actions, civil and/or criminal, to deter various kinds of defamation and retaliate against criticism.

The common law origins of defamation lie in the torts of slander (harmful statement in a transitory form, especially speech) and libel (harmful statement in a fixed medium, especially writing but also a picture, sign, or electronic broadcast), each of which gives a common law right of action.

"Defamation" is the general term used internationally, and is used in this article where it is not necessary to distinguish between "slander" and "libel". Libel and slander both require publication. The fundamental distinction between libel and slander lies solely in the form in which the defamatory matter is published. If the offending material is published in some fleeting form, as by spoken words or sounds, sign language, gestures and the like, then this is slander. If it is published in more durable form, for example in written words, film, compact disc and the like, then it is considered libel.


Singapore law
Singapore has perhaps the world's strongest libel laws. The country's leaders have clearly indicated to the public that libel on the Internet will not be tolerated and abusers will be severely punished. On March 6, 1996, the government made providers and publishers liable for the content placed on the Internet. Even the owners of cybercafes may be held liable for libelous statements posted or possibly viewed in their establishments.[11]

In 2001, a Singapore bank was fined $2 million for accidentally publishing a mildly libelous statement during the heated discussion of a takeover bid. The mistake was corrected very quickly, and there was no intent to do harm. In fact, it was reported that no harm seems to have been done. Nevertheless, the offended parties were awarded $1 million each. Apparently confirming the stringency of Singapore’s defamation law, Business Times declined to report on the matter because one of the libeled parties objected

I'M GONNA MAKE a prediction...

this coming mid year... i'll fail my A maths. =D
i had a stupid chemistry test today.. i never studied..
I Din't know half the shit the questions were about and im pretty sure
i won't be getting another first in class for my chemistry.. damn. my killing
spree... gonne.. >< wtf too much dota..

My no1 most hated teacher of the year = Miss Yvonne Chong...
yeah kinda surprising eh? out of all the teachers why did i chose that slut?
mmm why didn't i say my A maths teacher? cos... Little Yvonne here is fucking making my life difficult.. i dont wanna explain why but she just pisses me off.. her english lessons are boring.. i've never in my entire life think that english is boring.. TILL NOW!.. damn i just hate being in her class.. i'd sleep.. all the way. =D zzZzZZZZ.. thankfully i dont drool nowadays.. i've got a new sleeping position. its where u put ur head in between ur hand.. the arms.. err lmeme explain


this is ur arm =============
right so the head is this 000000
000000

u bend ur arm. so now its ======
=
=
=

yeah and u put ur head here ====
000
000
=
=
=
this ensures no drool coming out of the mouth.cos ur head wont be facing down..
ingenious eh? yeah.. thank u i now im smart =D.. lol

lols.. well today.. our maths teacher didnt come to schoool.. and i just heard news that she wouldn't be coming tmrw.. meaning No Emaths and no A maths... Yeah should be happy. but i really need to study my maths.. why the fuck cant she come!

today, me hong tai and ben decided that we should go and "torn" saturday afternoon till sunday morning... haha we'll be watching late night movies.. we've got the reaper in mind.. yeah and do alot of shopping bit of lan gaming here and there.. and this is gonna be my first time. i haven't exactly ask my parents but i hope they'll let. kinda thinkin they wont.. but sscrew that i'll just go no matter what.. eh ill cont this later. need to PLAY DOTA!

I bought a new watch today!! MUAHHAHA

Nonsense..
well today... my dad's suppose to see my teacher tommorow regarding my behaviour and my attitude problems.. and how i ain't givin my teachers the repsect they deserve.. dnt realli care.. my teachers are stucked up bitches.. and whores who cant stfu and mind their own fcking business.. its my attitude. i wanna be like that.. dont try to change me.. i'll change if i like.. DONT MAKE ME..

Hamburg song

.. Been quite sum time.. Life's been pretty rough so far.. constant failures.. Getting complaints from teachers, parents nagging, losing friendships, getting embarrased, making mistakes and ultimately... im afraid i'll lose something that's very dear to me.. I'll explain more in time to come.

People have been thinking that i'm a attention seeker.. Fine, i will not denie that at some point of time i tend to actually seek atention cos im not recieving any. I'm constantly being ignored by classmates.. teachers, friends and my family.. People are only there when times are good. But they just abandon me when times are bad.. Well wht can i say. Who's gonna stick around with u when times get bad? not many people do that.. I've yet to have a true friend who's willing to do that for me..

Back to attention seeking. Lets get the definition of Attention Seeker = somebody who wants attention: somebody who tries to attract attention, especially from somebody whose notice is craved

Ok. That's the definition. I just want people to know that i'm not really an attention seeker, its just that everyone needs a certain amout of attention.. and i'm not getting the normal amount a person should " so called " be getting... doesn't make sense eh? well whatever! To tell u the truth, i really wish i could be like those kind of people in class who sits down, do their work, is attentive.. doesn't really make noise or ask any questions.. doesn't try to be smart.. or gets any attention. That is truly what i want.. I guess i've been seeking attetion for years that i find it hard to just be quiet and sit down. I'll just be in my own world.. They only way for me to remain quiet and sit still is if i read a interestin book or story? something that gathers my attention for a long period of time.

I don't wanna be adored
Don't wanna be first in line
Or make myself heard
I'd like to bring a little light
To shine a light on your life
To make you feel loved
No, don't wanna be the only one you know
I wanna be the place you call home
I lay myself down
To make it so, but you don't want to know
I give much more
Than I'd ever ask for
Will you see me in the end
Or is it just a waste of time
Trying to be your friend
Just shine, shine, shine
Shine a little light
Shine a light on my life
Warm me up again
Fool, I wonder if you know yourself at all
You know that it could be so simple
I lay myself down
To make it so, but you don't want to know
You take much more
Than I'd ever ask for
Say a word or two to brighten my day
Do you think that you could see your way
To lay yourself down
And make it so, but you don't want to know
You take much more
Than I'd ever ask for

[till i blog again. Farewell]

Gorillaz - Clint Eastwood Lyrics

I ain't happy, I'm feeling glad
I got sunshine, in a bag
I'm useless,but not for long
The future is coming on
I ain't happy, I'm feeling glad
I got sunshine, in a bag
I'm useless, but not for long
The future is coming on
It's coming on
It's coming on
It's coming on

Yeah... Ha Ha!
Finally someone let me out of my cage
Now, time for me is nothing cos I'm counting no age
Now I couldn't be there
Now you shouldn't be scared
I'm good at repairs
And I'm under each snare
Intangible
Bet you didn't think so I command you to
Panoramic view
Look I'll make it all manageable
Pick and choose
Sit and lose
All you different crews
Chicks and dudes
Who you think is really kickin' tunes?
Picture you gettin' down in a picture tube
Like you lit the fuse
You think it's fictional
Mystical? Maybe
Spiritual
Hearable
What appears in you is a clearer view cos you're too crazy
Lifeless
To know the definition for what life is
Priceless
For you because I put you on the hype shit
You like it?
Gunsmokin' righteous with one token
Psychic among those
Possess you with one go

I ain't happy, I'm feeling glad
I got sunshine, in a bag
I'm useless,but not for long
The future is coming on
I ain't happy, I'm feeling glad
I got sunshine, in a bag
I'm useless, but not for long
The future is coming on
It's coming on
It's coming on
It's coming on

The essence the basics
Without it you make it
Allow me to make this
Child, like in nature
Rhythm
You have it or you don't that's a fallacy
I'm in them
Every sprouting tree
Every child and beast
Every cloud you see
You see with your eyes
I see destruction and demise
Corruption in disguise
>From this fuckin' enterprise
Now I'm sucking to your lies
Through Russ, though not his muscles but the percussion he provides
with me as a guide
But y'all can see me now cos you don't see with your eye
You perceive with your mind
That's the inner
So I'm gonna stick around with Russ and be a mentor
With a few rhymes so mother fuckers
Remember where the thought is
I brought all this
So you can survive when law is lawless
Feelings, sensations that you thought were dead
No squealing, remember
(that it's all in your head)

I ain't happy, I'm feeling glad
I got sunshine, in a bag
I'm useless, but not for long
The future is coming on
I ain't happy, I'm feeling glad
I got sunshine, in a bag
I'm useless, but not for long
My future is coming on
It's coming on
It's coming on
It's coming on
It's coming on
My future is coming on
It's coming on
It's coming on
It's coming on
It's coming on
My future is coming on
It's coming on
It's coming on
It's coming on
It's coming on
My future is coming on
It's coming on
It's coming on
My future is coming on
It's coming on
It's coming on
My future is coming on
It's coming on
It's coming on
My future


IM SO FUCKING IN LOVE WITH MY PSP I COULD LITERALLY MAKE LOVE WITH IT AND NEVER GO AWAY FROM IT.. I LOVEE U PSP.. i even named it.. her name is Chanelle. =) I LOVE CHANELLE

PAWNED PAWNED PAWNED PAWNED

lost my god damn wallet again..

Guess what? I LOST MY WALLET AGAIN. this time in bus 196. on the way to school.. And i'd normally check the bus seat b4 i left. but a friend of mine dashed out so i thought it was sorta important or something and i didn't look. when i came out of the bus i reached for my wallet and i realised it wasn't there.. so... next best thing to do? DASH FOR THE GOD DAMN BUS. i was rnning like a frekin mad asshole.. i know the bastard driver saw me cos from the rear mirror i could see his face staring at me.. motherfucking piece of shit driver, didn't even bother to stop for me. WHAT THE HELL.... i haven't told my parents.. but im gonna be in deep shit if they find out.. sigh well.. i can't do much now.... I'm just gonna do some WarCrafting..

well on the request of eric.. and the otehr dude.. here it goes

Well eric, it's fun to talk about u and how weird u can be when u get home like a zombie having no life at all by just sitting on ur god damn chair. i feel its pain. just playing the fricking wow all day long like a dumb ass shit and as i said a zombie. why were we talkin bout u? well the subject was wow so the first thing tat came to my mind was ERIC!! yeah eric jr tan.. ur everything bout wow to me. shit im gay now. but. yeah it was also cos of the south park episode on wow yeah? tat 1 u know? with that fat guy who had to had his mom bring in a trainy potty toilet thingy so he could shit on it while playing? yeah well we were thinking if u were liek him xD.,,, haha dont be offended by what i said.. its all cool with me man.. xD

well yeah blogging cos.. -.- they asked me to i know its been a long time since i've blogged? hell yeah long man.. cos the onli person that i ever updated the blog for was becky=D. yeah she.. haha now we dont talk much all of a sudden, i think its cos of the first time we met. she got disgusted at my site and dont wanna have nthing to do with me anymore from then. well i feel kinda sad and dissapointed and heart broken when we stopped talking.. so yeah heck taht.. im gettin over it a bit.. i took some drugs to get over it.. made me feel so fucking high =D yeah kidding haha dota was my drug.. i've been getting super uber better at it. till the point that i actually play with mirc people .. yes mirc.. mirc = WCG standard. there's a mh detector. but i've found several ways to exploit that.. haha =D HACKED ONCE AGAIN BY DICK!

Yvonne has ben making my life miserable once again. She wants me to stop being myself in class anymore.. again or ever.. cos i'm so called disrupting the class and not letting the weaker ones benefit at all from the lesson cos i'm always destroying it every 10mins or something.. zz she should ask our music tcher how it feels like for me being in his class.. its like 10x worser then how i behave in her class.. i've got the habit od destroying people classes cos i ger uber bored with it and i just dont think its fit for me to study in.. yep. =D.... not being complacent... just tryingto get it into everyon'es thick head.... I'M NOT SMART... IM JUST BEING COCKY. =D
She's gonna read this and start fucking with me again when i get back to school.. i just know it..
And screw how lousy my english is in ere. i dont give a shit... its blogging not composition...

My maths has so called been doing a bit better improved by 0.4xpercent.. yeah.. improvin..
well let's see.. what else can i talk about.. mmmm.. dont knoe anything yet,.. errr.. oh im saving money to get a crumpler,adidas/nike watch, new pair of dunks for school and outside.. and a new stylish hair cut.. =D yeah i dont wanna look bad in school man.. i've gotta keep up my so called reputation? err no tahts' wrong but watever.. i think i deserve much better than this stupid northstar.. shoe.. cheap fake version of the all stars.. the onli reason why i had to get those shoes cos i couldnt use my adidas campus, cos it's not all white.. bleh screw the school... . a watch cos i always keep staring at my wrist even thou there's nothing on it.. haha and to tell the time. crumpler cos my nike stinks.. -.-" mmmm hair cut.. yeah.. i wanna look different man.. i hate this dopy emo style hair.. school doesn't allow it.. oh and i also wana get contacts... throw away this fcking glasses... my eyes have gone so far and deep into my head... hahaha

Oh and i had a nice dream last night.. made me feel so good and unhomesick.. i dreamt of being in the filipins and how it felt when i was young over tehre. runiing around like a goon and playing wiht my air gun and stuff. and playing with the kids over there.. running away from adults... helping people.. sitting in jeepneys.. buying cheap stuff enjoing the sound of the rooster in the mrning.. and waking up early w.o fail.. i really love the filipins. i wish i could go back... but there's suppose to be a beter future for me here so i'll stay fer the sake of my future.. heh...

it's getting late spose to be sleeping but i just can't well im nt trying ill give it a try after this haha... i hate my life so much.. i've gotta pick myself up.. becky gave me the courage to try doing so but.. her hand got released and i fell back even deeper.. i hate it i hate my fcking life.. i dont knoe why.. i need someone to come and pull me back up again to how i felt when i was in pri 6.. its much beter than now.. well pri 5 will be better i hated psle results =D

when i go to school, i wear a mask.. i cover my face.. i pretend.. deep down inside. im just... whatever. this is toooo emotional.. screw taht..


Why do I have to flyover every town up and down the line?I'll die in the clouds aboveand you that I defend, I do not love.I wake up, it's a bad dream,No one on my side,I was fightingBut I just feel too tired to be fighting,guess I'm not the fighting kind.Where will I meet my fate?Baby I'm a man, I was born to hate.And when will I meet my end?In a better time you could be my friend.I wake up, it's a bad dream,No one on my side,I was fightingBut I just feel too tired to be fighting,guess I'm not the fighting kind.Wouldn't mind itif you were by my sideBut you're long gone,yeah you're long gone now.Where do we go?I don't even know,My strange old face,And I'm thinking about those days,And I'm thinking about those days.I wake up, it's a bad dream,No one on my side,I was fightingBut I just feel too tiredto be fighting,guess I'm not the fighting kind.Wouldn't mind itif you were by my sideBut you're long gone,yeah you're long gone now.

In school

Today in class.. Lol Der was dis huge moth in class about 2 times my palm size. It wouldnt move nor go away. despite throwing a few dozen of tissues it didn't fly or do a single shit except for flapping its wings a little. I wonder if it'd still be der tommorow. if it is ill take photo.

Hong Tai didn't come today. and the whole group didn't do our project which was spose to be about sum preventing std shit. but today we changed cos we couldn't find anything about std tat was different from other countries.. and shit.. bleh u won't udnerstand.. but..so we switched to dengue mosquito shit thingy... and we didn't do much about it in class at all.. so we just talked bout Zion, Dota, World of WarCraft, and about how fat, stupid eric is and how he has no life by sitting on the computer the whole day playing nothing but wow... It was kinda fun cos the teachers were staring at my whole group. halfway while i was saying " I sat right infront of the comp just staring at it with no life... then marc added '' yeah and a dengue mosquito came and bit u...'' HAHA WE all laughed cos the teacher was staring at us and we had to change the topic and stuff.. we were lame but it was fun larh.. dont realli care.

y.

I lost my wallet today.. Well it was about time i lost it.. haha. I was on my way to school.. and i had my lil bro's ez link card and mine inside.. i know i lost it on bus 93. cos that's the only bus i took.. bfore i lost it. When i was about to board bus 14. I noticed that my wallet was missing and i panicked.. I tried calling my dad 4 times but he never answered. Then i called Lilly to inform here that i had lost my wallet and i had no means of transportation or any cash or coins on me to take another bus to school.. So... i walked back home. and stared at my laptop filling out the lost and found form for the stupid sbs... they dont fcking pick up der fone. bastards. whats the use of a fone no. if no1 answers it .. i just hope i'll get b ack the wallet. i want the card. keep the money

INTERNET BACK

God Finnaly I've back my internet connection!!

I told StarHub I'd pay my bill online via Credit Card and asked if they could reconnect me back! And they bought it.. -_-" Wtf. They aren't really smart people eh.. haha now i can go and start messing around with my laptop and shit.

Yeah, so i just came back from KFC! Ate with my usual group of people.. We ate loads of shit and paid $40. I paid $40 to put on extra weight? LOL.. yeah haha... But it was really delicious.


I'm gonna go change this gay shitty skin but in the meantime i'll just stick with this fer a while.

Well its about time i posted something funny well ere they are


Lego CounterStrike.

The Worst Fight Scene Ever The worst, and best fight scene of all time. From a movie called ``Undefeatable`` (1994).

HAHAH THIS IS THE BEST SHIT EVER

Birth Day BASH

I've got to resist the urge to type true English!! I've been posting everything here in simple english and its about time i actually type english.. :D kk i feel lazy to do so now.

Today, Yvonne NEVER CAME TO SCHOOL? OMFGG WTFFFF?????? My Geography Teacher didn't turn up today too.. -_-" 2 of my Favourite lessons and the teachers ended up not coming? Grrr I always look forward to English Lessons and Humanities..

Lilly, came late for classes today:P The class was waiting for her at the hall for around 10mins.. She turned up later and while on the way back to our class.. The boys were waiting outside for me, From Various classes.. All ready to pounce on me and bash me up.. Wtf? I had to stand outside the class cos Lilly said i was fooling around outside, But i was just trying to not get myself hit @ all.. Which failed of cos =D haha

So after English Lesson, which happens to be the last period... I thought i could escape getting F*cked up but Thx to :D Louis, Andrew and Ian.. -.-" I had to walk myself back to the toilet and there waits my punishment for running away.. :{ On to the toilet, Miss Lai [Tui Tion] was walking pass by .. I tried to get her to save me :P haha [right... liek that'll happen] but she thought i was fooling around again so i shouted "MISS LAI U SUCK!" She continued walking so i said wtf.. bastard teacher to myself..

After turning a corner with the group of guys following me behind she came back and she was like MAD. 0,,0" [I said to myself.. shit i over did it.. ] She asked me what i said and i said.. U suck.. thats all? And she was like. Don't ever make scold my name or something like that.. bleh whatever i was okay.. sorrry........... yeah and i got humiliated infront of the whole Express Classes and the group of bastards that were following me behind.

At that point i was freaking nervous.. and terrified of cos.. When we entered the toilet.. WTF THERE WAS ALMOST 2 CLASS FULL OF GUYS WAITING.. some standing on the sinks, urinal cubicle.. all ready to jump and wack.. i was like omfg shit.. so much don't hit so hard ler? U guys didn't even get me a present or something yet alone Greet me Hppy B'day. WEll i could tell what they wanted was just give me a good wacking :P Probably cos of my mouth or sumthing.. WElll yeah i gave Andrew the Camera to catch everything on Video.. I WON'T EXPLAIN MUCH. I'll let the Video do all teh talking but.. That wasn't all btw its much more worse than what u'll see.... hahaha

KK I'm watching Borat now and i feel like laughing my fucking ass off cos its damnn funny :D.. haha yeah so.. I'll blog later

----------------------------------Laptop Still hasn't arrived.. -_---------------------------

The True meaning of love

Flames to dust
Lovers to Friends
Why do all good things come to an end?
Flames to dust
Lovers to Friends
Why do all good things come to an end?
Why do all good things come to an end?
Why do all good things come to an end?

Why does my happines have to end? When will everything revert to how it used to be when i was young..

Flames to Dust
Lovers to Friends
Why do all good things come to an end?
Come to an End?
Come to an End?
Come to an End?
Why do all good things come to an end?

Does anyone know what's the meaning of Love?
The true meaning of Love? No man can ever define the true meaning of love..


Here are some opinions:

i think love is never tired of waiting; love is kind; love has no envy; love has no high opinion of itself, love has no pride; love's ways are ever fair, it takes no thought for itself; it is not quickly made angry, it keeps no accounts of wrong; it takes no pleasure in wrongdoing, but has joy in what is true; love has the power of undergoing all things, having faith in all things, hoping all things. though the prophet's word may come to an end, tongues come to nothing, and knowledge have no more value, love has no end.

Love has never been defined since man began, so we have to use our own hearts and minds to decide. Love isn't all about looking at a good looking woman/man and hearing fireworks go off all the time. That's usually physical attraction, but it's normal at the beginning of our relationship. Love is respect, wanting to help that person in any aspect of their lives; protect them from harm's way; knowing that each other will be there 100%; feeling safe with that person; proud of being with them; sharing your hopes and dreams together; and my favorite ... feeling like you can conquer the world together! Knowing you will be together no matter what and continue on until the day you pass away. Now that's love to me!

The Meaning of Love and being in Love is and this is from my opinion: When two people care for each other so much that they would not let nothing or no one get in there way of being together. And they will go to the end of the world to be with each other and do anything for one another. But no one can explain Love. There is no explantion only what u would call Love.
well im only 15 but from my opinion of love we argue and fight but no matter what we always find some kind of way to make up. If you love some one then you trust them, you can count on them when you need them most. Fine things mean nothing but time means everything. You should be able to tell eachother everything. If you never argue then thats not love. And there really is no true definition of love because everyone feels different about the person they love. You can't just speak for everyone. because what i was reading didn't make since to me and this was coming from Adults.

The person who said-- You love somebody if you care for them more than you care for yourself. You love somebody when you would rather make them happy then your self happy-- you were absolutely right. Love can be described by that. If your own wants and needs dont matter to you as long as that person is okay, than that is true love

I believe that love can be described in more ways than one and there sure are different kinds of love you feel for someone but when you can't eat and can't sleep because all you think about is that special someone than you are definately in love. Ever sit on the couch thinking your going to relax and read a book or something and you look down and your on page 10 of the book but because your mind is thinking about the person you just can't seem to get your mind off of you have to go all the way back to page number one.....or you have a date with that special someone and when you glance at him/her for the first time that night your stomach knots with butterflies and you suddenly feel so sick because there's the man(woman) of your dreams standing in front of you....my defintion of love is when you can't wait to see that person again; when you get dropped off at home but run for the phone just so you can hear their voice once again; when you would give anything to be together just five more minutes; you trust them with all of your heart; your comfortable together and know you could talk about anyhting; you are there for each other no matter what good or bad; you stand beside them proudly with confidence and last but definately not least, sharing speacial moments that one day you know will make wonderful memories to look back on and share with the ones you love the most.

True love is when one cares about someone else's well being as much as one cares about one's own. Making someone else happy is certainly important, and yet one's own happiness in addition to that and as a result of that is what genuinely is true. True love stands together in equality and balance to what is honest, true and caring and not only about romantic love. It is a kindness of heart, soul, and mind. True love can be definited and is also a given, known and reciprocated when two people "share" in it.

That last post was right on! If we aren't happy with ourselves and tripping over ourselves to always please our partner without expecting anything back, then I don't call this love at all. One thing most of us have made mistakes over is wanting a 100% perfection in relationships and there is no such beast! Love has never been defined because it means different things to different people. Going to bed and making love is only an expression of love, but it's the tough stuff inbetween and sticking together that is the closest to love I've found.
To me love is putting up with the arguments with that person and arguing your family down for them. Love is always being there but I don't think when you love some one you should love them more than your self because that is totallu unhealty.

Love is a feeling, an emotion that cannot be explained. Either you feel it or you don't. We call it 'love' because there is no explanation for it. It is not a rational, predetermined action. When you can't rationalize that feeling then you call it love.

Love has no meaning at all! It is the very essence of our being, It is Life itself. "Infinite Love is all there is, everything else is Illusion". Enjoy it! There is nothing else to do :-).
"Love is patient. Love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast. It is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking. It is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always preserveres. Love never fails!"

The meaning of love and being loved? I don't think anyone can explain it, love is not something that can be explained it is a feeling that each and everyone should feel at least once in their life (hopefully). Of course it can be expressed but as for explained well it is difficult as everyones love is different. Love is a feeling that only the 2 people involved can understand, and if you dont understand it yet then just wait. Don't try to find a meaning for something which you cant. Love is everywhere it is something to be found and then understand, not explained. There is no explaination that is anywhere near what loving someone and being loved by the same person, truely is.