Hamburg song

.. Been quite sum time.. Life's been pretty rough so far.. constant failures.. Getting complaints from teachers, parents nagging, losing friendships, getting embarrased, making mistakes and ultimately... im afraid i'll lose something that's very dear to me.. I'll explain more in time to come.

People have been thinking that i'm a attention seeker.. Fine, i will not denie that at some point of time i tend to actually seek atention cos im not recieving any. I'm constantly being ignored by classmates.. teachers, friends and my family.. People are only there when times are good. But they just abandon me when times are bad.. Well wht can i say. Who's gonna stick around with u when times get bad? not many people do that.. I've yet to have a true friend who's willing to do that for me..

Back to attention seeking. Lets get the definition of Attention Seeker = somebody who wants attention: somebody who tries to attract attention, especially from somebody whose notice is craved

Ok. That's the definition. I just want people to know that i'm not really an attention seeker, its just that everyone needs a certain amout of attention.. and i'm not getting the normal amount a person should " so called " be getting... doesn't make sense eh? well whatever! To tell u the truth, i really wish i could be like those kind of people in class who sits down, do their work, is attentive.. doesn't really make noise or ask any questions.. doesn't try to be smart.. or gets any attention. That is truly what i want.. I guess i've been seeking attetion for years that i find it hard to just be quiet and sit down. I'll just be in my own world.. They only way for me to remain quiet and sit still is if i read a interestin book or story? something that gathers my attention for a long period of time.

I don't wanna be adored
Don't wanna be first in line
Or make myself heard
I'd like to bring a little light
To shine a light on your life
To make you feel loved
No, don't wanna be the only one you know
I wanna be the place you call home
I lay myself down
To make it so, but you don't want to know
I give much more
Than I'd ever ask for
Will you see me in the end
Or is it just a waste of time
Trying to be your friend
Just shine, shine, shine
Shine a little light
Shine a light on my life
Warm me up again
Fool, I wonder if you know yourself at all
You know that it could be so simple
I lay myself down
To make it so, but you don't want to know
You take much more
Than I'd ever ask for
Say a word or two to brighten my day
Do you think that you could see your way
To lay yourself down
And make it so, but you don't want to know
You take much more
Than I'd ever ask for

[till i blog again. Farewell]