What could i possibly expect under these conditions?

How long more?

How long more dicK?
How long more before you Burst.
I'd like to pop myself and run
Away from this misery and hopeless dump.

How much longer can i last?
Before the rage inside me gets high.
I need to get out of here fast.
Before its too late.
Before I regret.
Oh wait i already regret.

Take it on the other side.

I don't ever wanna feel like i did that day. Take me to the place i love. Take me all the way.


Medication is really affecting me. Especially my behaviour in school. It gets me all depressed and low and really quiet. I start day dreaming, thinking sad thoughts and i actually felt like crying. I could feel tears well up in my eyes, i know it sounds damn gayish. In fact i have no idea why am i behaving like this all of a sudden. What happened to the old me?

What happened to the guy that didn't give a shit about what other people had to say or feel? What happened to that confident bright young ruthless rude boy. What happened to all of that? Why am i suddenly so emotional and mushy and full of problems and so self concious about my image in school?

I hope this is just a phase i'm going through. Hey what the fuck? OF COURSE IT'S A PHASE. See what i just did there? I made myself pity myself. So much self pity! This is not me. I really need to pick up and get back on my fucking feet and start running. Let's just get this 3 years in Millenia Institute (Shit School) over with. I don't understand how people who failed and retained year 1 could even think of staying on here in MI. lol GTFO, MOVE ON and go to POLY.

Hopefully i'll stop schooling after Promo 1's. I really really wanna get the fuck off here. This isn't the place for me. This isn't where i am suppose to be. I am destined for greater things i'm capable of so much more. I'll never reach my potential if i'm to stay here.
Dad please please, listen to the things i tell you..
I need to get out of here.

eUu R sh00x cUT3

we hate :

- the "x" behind your words

- when your "o" become "0"

- when your "g" become "q"

- the multiple "i"s and "e"s you drag and spam in your words

- you squealing lika mudabitch

we love :

- you talking normally

- you to stfu

POST BELOW ME USES , INSTEAD OF THE APPROPRIATE -

Literature Teacher

I have never taken literature before in Secondary school and now moving on to Pre Uni level, i am taking literature as one of my subjects and i'm new to this subject. No matter how eloquent and sophisticated my language is i can never fail to criticise literature accurately or to the standards of my teachers.

Thing is they don't even bother teaching me how to answer the questions properly, they lack explanation and guides. You don't honestly expect me to figure out how i'm suppose to answer theses questions all by myself. For now i'm trying out with trial and error. Just handing up tests and looking at the marks i'm getting. It's really really shitty. i get marks like what? 6/25 ? Honestly, what the fuck?

It's a language subject, i'm suppose to excel at this. What's missing? You know what's missing? A proper fucking guide. For crying out loud Millenia Institute, Learn to fuckin teach then maybe you won't see 3/4 of the Pre u 1 kids retain/leave school before they even make it to their A's year.

Fucked up shit ass school.

Sing for the moment

I've got it all, but I feel so deprived
I go up, I come down and I'm emptier inside
Tell me what is this thing that I feel like I'm missing
And why can't I let it go

There's gotta be more to life...
Than chasing down every temporary high to satisfy me
Cause the more that I'm...
Tripping out thinking there must be more to life
Well it's life, but I'm sure... there's gotta be more
Than wanting more

I've got the time and I'm wasting it slowly
Here in this moment I'm half way out the door
Onto the next thing, I'm searching for something that's missing

May 14 2010 MI Mart Jurong Point

I get on the PC and i smiled.

Tech Loser (ap) says:
*when is he not.
*you and esther today?
*how
***
dick. says:
*talked in tthe bus on the way home
*talked at the cafe alone
*that's pretty much about it
*oh
*yea
*and when we were walking up
*the stairs frm b1
*we saw elly
*and cos we were walking together
*elly went.
*eh u 2 dating ah
Tech Loser (ap) says:
*LOLOLOLL
*so cute
dick. says:
*and esther. went tsk. u ah elly.
Tech Loser (ap) says:
*can imagine her saying
dick. says:
*then i just shut up
*and walk forward
*and esther looked n said
*this elly ah
*cute ah.
Tech Loser (ap) says:
*HAAHHAAHA
dick. says:
*and then i tried to change topic
*and talk about elly's pic in class room
*then she went, y athat pic cute
*akward moment mahr so quickly shift.
Tech Loser (ap) says:
*shelby asked me just now. cause we on the phone if you guys were together.
*i was like surprised lah
*she asked out of the blue
dick. says:
*me and esther?
Tech Loser (ap) says:
*yah
*as in dating
dick. says:
*haha why?
Tech Loser (ap) says:
*and then i said no lah
*then she said
*i think esther likes him eh
dick. says:
*certainly did look like it thou? lol rofl.
Tech Loser (ap) says:
*then i: really ah?
*hahahaha
*i wldnt be surprised **
dick. says:
*lol
Tech Loser (ap) says:
*are you smiling wide?
*lol
dick. says:
*yes i am
*^^
Tech Loser (ap) says:
*hahah knew it
dick. says:
*hehehehe
Tech Loser (ap) says:
*lol cute nye
*+o(
Tech Loser (ap) says:
*hahah
*she is nice yeahhh
*pretty what.
*like a sweet way
dick. says:
*she's beautiful
*very beautiful
*unique, different
*elagent
Tech Loser (ap) says:
*awwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww
dick. says:
*sophisticated
Tech Loser (ap) says:
*i just smiled at that omg you are blabberingggg
*hahah awww
dick. says:
*complicated
*i'm serious
*i just wana hold her
*protect her from anything
*u know..
*i want her to be happy
Tech Loser (ap) says:
*awwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww
dick. says:
*when she's so care free
Tech Loser (ap) says:
*okay awwwwww
dick. says:
*that smile on her face
*just makes my day.
* i know its so over used
*but
*i srslsly mea it
*mean it*
Tech Loser (ap) says:
*no lah it doesnt sound overused
*:)
*its sweet lahh
dick. says:
*;( wish i culd tell it to her face
Tech Loser (ap) says:
*you will one day
*just dont wait too long
*before its too late.
*:/
*but at the same time
*dont rush
dick. says:
*hur hur hur. dw yo
Tech Loser (ap) says:
*hahsah dyou get it?
dick. says:
*i do.
Tech Loser (ap) says:
*yeah akay
dick. says:
*omg smiless
Tech Loser (ap) says:
*hahah whattt till now?