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Saturday, November 3, 2007

just got back from the hospital.. Head iNjury

Wednesday, October 31, 2007

I often do things, that get me into situations that I didn't consider before I started. I was just thinking earlier today, that one of the reasons I took a long break from blogging before, was the fact that people starting reading what I wrote. Which might sounds a bit nuts, considering I post what I write on the web, but it's how I feel sometimes. I guess, just like in real life, I don't like too many people getting to know me, and I am more honest here than in my day to day life.
Very personal. I doubt this will make much sense to anyone but me. This is for me, so I guess that doesn't really matter then does it?

I don't know why I always think that if I try hard enough, I will never have times like these. Like if I could just pay attention, I will some day learn what the exact moment is that triggers this. I used to feel bad about how I acted when I get like this. Anymore, I think this is just who I am, and I honestly mean what I say when I feel this way. Just because most people are too "polite" to tell the truth, doesn't mean it doesn't sometimes need to be said. I don't really care if that makes me the asshole.

I have been having such terrible days. I just don't care. I know that I am being abrasive. I know I am being impatient, irritable, and mean. I have very little patience for incompetence, even on the best of days. Times like this, I have none.

To B: If you don't want to do it, and do it right, shut up and let someone else do it. Don't half ass something, and then get pissed when someone else goes back and redoes your work. Don't get mad because I work circles around you. Stop pouting when things don't go exactly like you think that they should. If you weren't such a bitch, and didn't spend so much time worrying about everyone else's business, you might have more time to do a better job. Have you every thought that the reason you think nobody likes you, is because they don't. Have you ever thought that maybe since you have a problem with everyone, then maybe the real problem is you? Worry about your own business, stop talking about everyone behind their back, and quit kissing ass to someone's face and putting a knife in their back. If you could do all of that, maybe you might not be so miserable and might actually grow a life of you own.

I used to get so upset after a had a day like today. I would worry that someone didn't like what I said. If someone got mad at me, I would blame myself, because I am the one that's nuts, I must be wrong. It just hit me, that just because I have some problems, doesn't always make me wrong. It might make me at bit more blunt with my delivery that I should be, but you really shouldn't push buttons, unless you want to see what they do. Sure, I might have always backed down in the past, but maybe I've had enough. I used to feel like I needed friends so bad, that I would settle for anyone that would talk to me. Maybe I realized that I would rather be friendless than to let you push me around, in your subtle way.

I don't care. I am so exhausted from lack of sleep. I am so angry at ....everything. I am so sensitive.

I don't have time for chit chat. You don't really care how I am, so why bother asking? It's just these stupid games that we play with each other, where we can feel better about ourselves. How are you? Fine. And you? Pretty good. If I told you how I was really feeling, you would probably avoid me as much as possible in the future. My own family doesn't want to know when I feel like this. Why? Because if they don't know, they don't have to worry about it. They don't have to pretend to relate, when they really have no idea. Or even worse, try to convince me that if I wanted to, I could just snap out of it. Trust me, nobody feels like this, if they have a choice.

A nice middle ground would be nice. How is middle ground again? It's been so long since I've seen it, I forgot. I remember it's nice and I like it there. I hope that it hasn't forgotten about me. If effort alone could do it, I would already be there. I've just got to hold on. This too shall pass. It always does. And then again, it always comes back...


All night hearing voices telling me
That I should get some sleep
Because tomorrow might be good for something

Hold on
Feeling like I'm heading for a
breakdown
And I don't know why

But I'm not crazy, I'm just a little unwell
I know right now you can't tell
But stay awhile and maybe then you'll see
A different side of me

I'm not crazy, I'm just a little impaired
I know right now you don't care
But soon enough you're gonna think of me
And how I used to be


From: "Unwell" by Matchbox Twenty

WTF IS A HOLIDAY FOR IF U STILL GOTTA GO TO SCHOOL!

Sunday, October 28, 2007

***Notice of Account Closure***

Account Name: Tridagerx
Offense: Unapproved Third Party Software

A third party program is any file or program that is not a part of the World of Warcraft software, but is used to gain an advantage in the game, such as increasing your movement speed or teleporting from one place to another beyond what is allowed by game design. It also includes any programs that obtain information from the game that is not normally available to the regular player or that transmit or modify any of the game files. Normally, this classification does not include UI modifications, except those UIs that require an external application to function.

Any external applications that are used in conjunction with World of Warcraft can cause quite a few unwanted side effects. Some of the major possible results of the use of third party programs can be instability of the game to the point that a player "crashes" from the game quite often. External programs can also be used to transmit viruses, spyware, and other unwanted programs into a player's computer. Third party programs can also be used to obtain information from the player's computer, such as account, password, and personal information.

If a player is found to have used such a program, he/she may:

* Be temporarily suspended from the game
* Have further action taken, up to and including account closure, based on the intent of the program

Access to the World of Warcraft account Tridagerx, and any World of Warcraft account associated with the payment information you have provided, has been permanently disabled. The account has been identified as having used unauthorized game modifications and thus is in violation of the World of Warcraft Terms of Use. The recurring subscription on the account has been disabled to prevent further charges.

Please review the World of Warcraft Terms of Use at http://www.worldofwarcraft.com/legal/termsofuse.html, which you accepted when you installed World of Warcraft and established the account(s). Section 2, Paragraph C details the limitations of game play modifications and use of any third-party or “packet sniffing” software. In addition, Section 3, Paragraph C, parts iii and iv restrict the use of any hack, scripting or macroing software which obtains information from World of Warcraft to gain a competitive advantage over other players.

Furthermore, any activities not intended by game design which affect the economy, the client, player characters or the world itself have a tremendous negative impact on the potential enjoyment for all players. The effects of these activities take many forms including a bloated game economy, server instability, and allowing unauthorized access to accounts, computers, and player data.

As a result, the account(s) will no longer be accessible and will not be reopened under any circumstances.

Any disputes or questions concerning this account action can only be addressed by the World of Warcraft Account Administration department. To learn more about how Account Administration is able to assist you, please visit us at http://www.blizzard.com/support/wowaa/.

Thank you for your understanding in this matter and respecting our position and all statutes within the World of Warcraft Terms of Use.

Regards,

Comesticus
Account Administration
Blizzard Entertainment
http://www.wow-europe.com/en/index.xml

Bye Bye my level 70 BT Equipped Warrior.
I'm uber Emo now.. T_T ...
it's forever gone from the EU armory...

I was like on my hunter. and checkurcheek whispered me sum bt gears. and i told him 1 of the bows dropped when we downed illidan. and he asked for my warrior's name i gave it to him.. he went on armory, checked and found out it wasn'tt here so he came back and called me a lier. i told him i'd get the link personally. and i couldn't find my warrior. so i was like wtf? i tried logging onto account manager.. and my acc was banned.. i was like ofmg wat did i do now i havent loged onto my warrior in like months. and... i saw my emaill and this shit was here.. cos my warrrior is on a notehr email im like omfg mudafuckers...fark blizz.. T_T...

rAY. btw i scked at my xams results.. dont ask.. ill tell when im feeling better....