It's been 3 days so far.
3 days after the holidays.
3 days of having a good look at her face again.
3 days of extreme agony and pain.
3 days of frustration.
3 days of rage
3 days of confusion.
3 days of akwardness.
3 days of school.
more importantly
3 days of silence.
Yes silence, she has not spoken a word to me yet. What I mean is basic conversation, she hasn't started a conversation with me at all. No, How was the Paper? No, How was your Holiday? No, Hi. No, Byes.
I have to start a conversation with her all the bloody time and i always get short responses like, yeah okay it was alright. Then she turns around and starts talking animatedly to Furqan, going on and on and ranting about stuff, laughing out loud, giggling and hitting him and stuff. It hurts, it hurts to know that you do no wish to speak to me. I tried, i tried to talk to you. Don't call me a pussy, Fuck you. You're so childish Immature and so demanding, I cannot understand what the fuck you are trying to do? What the fuck do you want me from me? You have no idea how much pain i'm in every time i'm around you guys. I just end up pulling out my ear plugs and listening to a songs. It's way better than hearing conversations that i have no say in, I can't relate to you guys for shit.
I'd very much like to leave the group and hang out with other people in class but i cannot, it'll just make me look weak. I can't look weak i have my pride my ego. I can't lose face. And besides the whole fucking class is full of girls, Do you have any fucking idea how akward it would be for me to hang out with a bunch of girls all the bloody time? Exactly...
I'm tired. I'm fed up.
What the fuck do you want from me? What do you want me to do! I'm suffering every single minute in school.
I just want things to go back to the way they were before, at least it's much better than it is now. Looking at you is just so fucking akward. Why do you have to play mind games with me?
Thursday, July 1, 2010
Wednesday, June 30, 2010
good morning
Take a look at the video, ignore the music if you hate it but the video really has alot of meaning
illuminati
Shut the fuck up. cant we enjoy music today without some asshole bringing up the illuminati. shit. everyone's so worried about illuminati and new world order bullshit. just enjoy the damn video. anything is symbolic nowadays that dont mean its bad. dont be easily convinced that artists are down with demons and shit. dont assume that either cuz 99percent its not true.
lay low
Do people really think writing an ignorant ass comment like "I will fuking say my opinions you big dick sucking monkey fucking piece of horse shit bastard that ever had the nerve to creep out of hell and tried to hump your own mother's pussy
" do you think that makes you so hard and changes what someone thinks orwhatever. Seriously come on now grow up unless you live in the same place with the person you're talkin to calm down with your internet keyboard fighting its lame!
" do you think that makes you so hard and changes what someone thinks orwhatever. Seriously come on now grow up unless you live in the same place with the person you're talkin to calm down with your internet keyboard fighting its lame!
Tuesday, June 29, 2010
4chan teller.
BAM TO BEHOLD, A PUBLIC BULLETIN BOARD, BUILT OF BOTH BRILLIANCE AND BARBARITY BY BASTARDS WITH BONERS. THIS BASTION, NO MERE BULWARK OF BOREDOM, IS A BRUTAL BARRAGE OF BLISTERING BULLSHIT, BARELY BENEVOLENT BUT BEHIND THE BIGOTRY AND BOOBS, BEYOND THE BITTER BROADCASTS OF BRAGGING BUFFOONS: HERE BE THE BODY POLITIC. A BROTHERHOOD OF BLASPHEMY, BLESSED WITH MORE BALLS THAN BRAINS, BATTLING THE BLAND, THE BOGUS, THE BENIGN. BEDLAM? BRING IT ON. BUT I BABBLE BETTER TO BE BRIEF. YOU MAY CALL ME /B/
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Your Body is a Wonderland.
1:47am
I just woke up about 2 hours ago, had to take a nap. I've been exhausted and sleepy, blame it on the World Cup and me watching Wuthering Heights till about 4 am in the morning the night before. Anyway, i have a Malay paper later in the morning @11:30 am. Great, 10 hours away! (just realised it's 8:30) Economics in the afternoon @ 1:30pm, i'm totally clueless and way too tired to read my notes so i'm just watching some lectures on youtube.
Okay so it's finally dawned on me that I'm going nowhere with my fondness for Esther and I think I'm starting to forget why i ever liked her. I can't really see the 2 of us being anywhere anymore. We've been so akward and uncomfortable with each other for 3 months so far. I don't see a possibility of ever changing the way things are as it is nowadays. I'd really like to hope that we could somehow salvage our friendship but I reckon she'll never be a close friend or a good one anymore.
To be honest, I'm starting to find her very very boring and lame. It's been a really long time since she's ever told me ,personally, anything interesting that's been going on in her life, no funny moments, incidents from the holidays or jokes. When we're together its always akward silence. I can't come up with anything to make her laugh or interest her, out of fear of sounding ridiculous or stupid. I'd really rather much be satisfied just holding our tongues when we're together, it's nice just knowing she's there thou we can barely create a good conversation/discussion.
Anyway yeah, this is pretty much what i've been thinking about in my head so far. I really don't know what's going in her mind, I just want to tell her "Hey! I'll be here for you, you know, even though we really don't talk that much I'd like to listen and help you out"
I really really really just want things to be the way they were before, not that before was really good anyway, it's just better than where we are now.
We're in the middle of a highway, I can't move or i'll get hit.
I just woke up about 2 hours ago, had to take a nap. I've been exhausted and sleepy, blame it on the World Cup and me watching Wuthering Heights till about 4 am in the morning the night before. Anyway, i have a Malay paper later in the morning @
Okay so it's finally dawned on me that I'm going nowhere with my fondness for Esther and I think I'm starting to forget why i ever liked her. I can't really see the 2 of us being anywhere anymore. We've been so akward and uncomfortable with each other for 3 months so far. I don't see a possibility of ever changing the way things are as it is nowadays. I'd really like to hope that we could somehow salvage our friendship but I reckon she'll never be a close friend or a good one anymore.
To be honest, I'm starting to find her very very boring and lame. It's been a really long time since she's ever told me ,personally, anything interesting that's been going on in her life, no funny moments, incidents from the holidays or jokes. When we're together its always akward silence. I can't come up with anything to make her laugh or interest her, out of fear of sounding ridiculous or stupid. I'd really rather much be satisfied just holding our tongues when we're together, it's nice just knowing she's there thou we can barely create a good conversation/discussion.
Anyway yeah, this is pretty much what i've been thinking about in my head so far. I really don't know what's going in her mind, I just want to tell her "Hey! I'll be here for you, you know, even though we really don't talk that much I'd like to listen and help you out"
I really really really just want things to be the way they were before, not that before was really good anyway, it's just better than where we are now.
We're in the middle of a highway, I can't move or i'll get hit.
Sunday, June 27, 2010
Fuck the Death Penalty for Drug Trafficking.Fuck it
There is a clear, longstanding and worldwide move toward restriction or abolition of the death penalty. Only a small minority of countries continue to implement the death penalty: in 2008, 25 countries carried out executions. ADPAN, Human Rights Watch and the International Harm Reduction Association (IHRA) oppose the death penalty in all cases as a violation of fundamental rights - the right to life and the right not to be subjected to cruel, inhuman, and degrading punishment.
Sixteen countries in Asia apply the death penalty for drug-related offenses. As many countries in the region do not make information on the death penalty available, it is impossible to calculate exactly how many drug-related death sentences are imposed. However, in Indonesia, Malaysia, Singapore, and Thailand, reports indicate that a high proportion of death sentences are imposed upon those convicted of drug offenses. ADPAN, Human Rights Watch, and the IHRA express particular concern that China, Indonesia, and Vietnam continue to execute individuals for drug offenses - and that some countries, such as China since the early 1990s, and Indonesia in 2008, have marked the occasion of June 26 with such executions.
Despite the executions in Asia, there is no clear evidence of a decline in drug-trafficking that could be attributed to the threat or use of the death penalty. There is no credible evidence that the death penalty deters serious crime in general more effectively than other punishments. The most recent survey of research findings on the relation between the death penalty and homicide rates, conducted for the United Nations in 1988 and updated in 1996 and 2002, concluded: "... research has failed to provide scientific proof that executions have a greater deterrent effect than life imprisonment. Such proof is unlikely to be forthcoming. The evidence as a whole gives no positive support to the deterrent hypothesis."
UN human rights mechanisms - including the UN special rapporteur on extrajudicial, summary, or arbitrary executions, and the UN Human Rights Committee - have concluded that the death penalty for drug offenses fails to meet the condition of "most serious crime", under which the death penalty is allowed only as an "exceptional measure" where "there was an intention to kill which resulted in the loss of life" (UN Doc, A/HRC/4/20, 29 January 2007, para 53). The UN high commissioner for human rights and the director of the UN Office on Drugs and Crime have likewise expressed grave concerns about the application of the death penalty for drug offenses.
Death sentences are often handed down after unfair legal processes, a problem made worse by laws, policies or practices regulating drug offenses in some Asian countries. Mandatory death sentences are applied for certain drug offenses in Brunei, India, Laos, Singapore, and Malaysia, leaving a judge with no discretion over the sentence for defendants found guilty. Mandatory death sentences violate international standards on fair trials. Individualized sentencing is required to prevent cruel, inhuman, or degrading punishment and the arbitrary deprivation of life. Singapore, which has one of the highest per capita execution rates in the world, as well as Malaysia, continue to hand down death sentences to individuals alleged to be drug traffickers after trials that presume guilt, and in which death sentences are mandatory.
Confessions that have been coerced sometimes form the basis of guilty verdicts, death sentences and executions. Competent legal assistance is unavailable to many defendants, including defendants facing drugs-related charges, leaving many with little capacity to mount a defense at any stage of the proceedings.
Draconian penalties for drug offenses, including the death penalty, hinder public health programs that reduce the harm drugs may cause to individual drug users, their loved ones, communities, and states. China, Malaysia, and Vietnam have recently stepped up their harm reduction programs to reduce HIV, hepatitis C and other drug-related health and social harms. However, excessive punishments and overly repressive drug law enforcement have been shown time and again to drive target groups away from such services. The death penalty therefore not only violates the right to life of those condemned, but is actually counterproductive to efforts to reduce the harm caused by drugs.
Sixteen countries in Asia apply the death penalty for drug-related offenses. As many countries in the region do not make information on the death penalty available, it is impossible to calculate exactly how many drug-related death sentences are imposed. However, in Indonesia, Malaysia, Singapore, and Thailand, reports indicate that a high proportion of death sentences are imposed upon those convicted of drug offenses. ADPAN, Human Rights Watch, and the IHRA express particular concern that China, Indonesia, and Vietnam continue to execute individuals for drug offenses - and that some countries, such as China since the early 1990s, and Indonesia in 2008, have marked the occasion of June 26 with such executions.
Despite the executions in Asia, there is no clear evidence of a decline in drug-trafficking that could be attributed to the threat or use of the death penalty. There is no credible evidence that the death penalty deters serious crime in general more effectively than other punishments. The most recent survey of research findings on the relation between the death penalty and homicide rates, conducted for the United Nations in 1988 and updated in 1996 and 2002, concluded: "... research has failed to provide scientific proof that executions have a greater deterrent effect than life imprisonment. Such proof is unlikely to be forthcoming. The evidence as a whole gives no positive support to the deterrent hypothesis."
UN human rights mechanisms - including the UN special rapporteur on extrajudicial, summary, or arbitrary executions, and the UN Human Rights Committee - have concluded that the death penalty for drug offenses fails to meet the condition of "most serious crime", under which the death penalty is allowed only as an "exceptional measure" where "there was an intention to kill which resulted in the loss of life" (UN Doc, A/HRC/4/20, 29 January 2007, para 53). The UN high commissioner for human rights and the director of the UN Office on Drugs and Crime have likewise expressed grave concerns about the application of the death penalty for drug offenses.
Death sentences are often handed down after unfair legal processes, a problem made worse by laws, policies or practices regulating drug offenses in some Asian countries. Mandatory death sentences are applied for certain drug offenses in Brunei, India, Laos, Singapore, and Malaysia, leaving a judge with no discretion over the sentence for defendants found guilty. Mandatory death sentences violate international standards on fair trials. Individualized sentencing is required to prevent cruel, inhuman, or degrading punishment and the arbitrary deprivation of life. Singapore, which has one of the highest per capita execution rates in the world, as well as Malaysia, continue to hand down death sentences to individuals alleged to be drug traffickers after trials that presume guilt, and in which death sentences are mandatory.
Confessions that have been coerced sometimes form the basis of guilty verdicts, death sentences and executions. Competent legal assistance is unavailable to many defendants, including defendants facing drugs-related charges, leaving many with little capacity to mount a defense at any stage of the proceedings.
Draconian penalties for drug offenses, including the death penalty, hinder public health programs that reduce the harm drugs may cause to individual drug users, their loved ones, communities, and states. China, Malaysia, and Vietnam have recently stepped up their harm reduction programs to reduce HIV, hepatitis C and other drug-related health and social harms. However, excessive punishments and overly repressive drug law enforcement have been shown time and again to drive target groups away from such services. The death penalty therefore not only violates the right to life of those condemned, but is actually counterproductive to efforts to reduce the harm caused by drugs.
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