Omnipotent: 5/2/10

Saturday, May 8, 2010

dota game

kay, just played a good dota game with troll and now i'm sweating like mad. Yes dota is hard work, it's like rugby, wait no harder than rugby. i'm sweating realll hard can't be the weather pfft, no singapore is so cooling singapore is cold. singapore is not hot. i'm just sweating cos dota is really really hard work it takes alot of effort and moving around and it really kicks your metabolism in to gear 6.

I need to dota more often. Cos i just realised dota helps you lose weight! Cos anything that gets your heart pumping is good for you and in this case dota is getting my heart pumping so its good work i need to dota more often so yeah. Dota dota dota. help me lose 10kg more please? i'm 89kg atm. i wanna get to 79 or 80. 80 is good. Thou they say in Rugby that i'm light whaaat? 89kg is light. Pfft. yeah maybe you could say that but I wanna look good naked and dota will help me achieve that.

So much homework. So much time to do them, so not doing anything..

Paranoid

IS PARANOID.
Everything she does just sends out the wrong message.

Waiting for the bus

near death experience

God Does NOT love you

Let's assume, for a moment, that there is a God. We may not know the nature of God, or
which religion comes closest to the truth, but we can be sure of one thing:

God does not love you.

Look at all the cruelty and misery in the world, which God does nothing to stop. Right now,
as you are reading this, there are children in various places around the world being raped
and tortured. Most of us would risk our lives, give up our lives, to save them if we could.
God stands by and does nothing. God has abandoned these children, and clearly does not
love them. God does not love you, either.

There are some religions which claim that "God's love is a different kind of love", which is
supposed to explain and justify what appears to be God's divine indifference. This is total
bullshit. If I claim that I love my neighbor, and then set his house on fire and shoot him in
the head, anyone can see that my "love" is not love at all.

Another fallacy along these lines is the statement that, "God doesn't give us more than we
can handle in life". This is a ridiculous statement. Go to a mental institution, go to the ward
for those who are seriously disturbed, and you'll see people who just sit and rock back and
forth all day, staring off into space, or screaming at nonexistant terrors. God has given
them more than they could handle, and now they're totally broken.

So you have no loving God watching over you, making sure you get what you need. You
don't get what you need in life, you don't get what you want, you don't get what you
deserve. You get what you get.

Friday, May 7, 2010

Big Lie

All of your life, you've been lied to.

You've been told what life is supposed to be about. Grow up, do well in school, make
friends, get a girlfriend or boyfriend, get a good job, get married, get a nice house and
have kids. Watch tv, go pray, vote, find some hobbies to entertain you. Donate
money to charity. Go on vacation. Get old, retire, spend time with the grandkids. Look
back on your life with nostalgia, look forward to the afterlife of your choosing.

This is what you're supposed to do, this is what normal people do. This is what everyone
else is doing. Oh sure, there are a few aberrations here and there, sometimes some
people slip off this track, but you can get back on at any time.

Of course, when you actually look at the world around you, you may see something
entirely different.

See that young married couple living next door, with the wife gardening in the front yard
while the kids play out back? She's snowed under with Xanax all the time, without which
she'd be in a continuous state of anxiety. And her 6 year old son, he's following in mom's
footsteps already, taking his daily dose of Ritalin to keep him tranquil enough to sit still all
day at school.

She stopped sleeping with her husband several years ago, but that's ok, cause he
sneaks off a couple times a week and has sex with street prostitutes in the back seat of
his car, or a nearby hotel 81. He feels a bit bad for them, and tips them extra.

His favorite prostitute is always glad to see him, because he's pleasant enough and an
easy $75. Too bad they can't all be like him. She gets beaten up and raped by pimps
multiple times a year, but that's ok, she can handle it, cause even at its worst this job is
still better than what she went through as a child. Besides, there's no other way she could
support her crack cocaine habit.

And the policeman who tries to arrest her, last night he arrested the neighborhood marijuana
dealer, then went home and got nice and legally drunk on heineken.

And the policeman's daughter, the pretty secondary school cheerleader, sneaks off and vomits after every meal so she won't get fat.

But these are all small scale problems. Don't forget that, several times a century, often
enough to happen at least once during the average human lifetime, all the most powerful
nations of the world divide up into sides and begin slaughtering anyone they can find on
the opposing side by the millions. This is agreed by all to be unfortunate but necessary.

And the city you live in, if you're in a western country and living in a city, has already been
targetted by some country's nuclear weaponry. A few pushes of the right buttons, and
you'll be vaporized, or survive and live in some radioactive wasteland. But that's ok,
because it probably won't happen in the immediate future, so you might as well go out
and buy the week's groceries.

Beneath the thin veneer of civilization lies a howling madness, and the average normal
human being has the ability to commit genocide during the day, then come home and
tuck the kids in at night, or to ignore the pain of a billion people in misery while mowing
the lawn or doing christmas shopping.

The Big Lie is that all of the problems of human life are separate. If you
compartmentalize them all, you can convince yourself that once you lose that 40 pounds,
or get more money, or get your husband to stop beating you, or finally kick that addiction,
you'll be a normal happy person like everyone else. And once you get the right politician
elected, or win the war, or convert the infidels to your religion, the world will be a happy
place.

The problems of life are all symptoms of the same cause. The locks on your doors
which you need to keep out burglars, the schoolyard bully, the serial killer, the drug
addict, the drug dealer, the billionaire who thinks he's being exploited by the poor, the
millions of soldiers fighting for peace, the enslavement or slaughter of entire races of
people, and your own unhappiness, all are interconnected. They are all part of one
problem.

I wish I could define the problem for you, or offer a solution. Human beings seem to
have a basic design flaw. We're a fucked up species, striving to be healthy and happy
while simultaneously destroying ourselves and each other in a million different ways.

The only positive note I can end this on is that it's better to understand all this than to be
ignorant of it, I think.

Crushed

I had a 170 kilo guy fall on me after tackling him and stepping on my already injured ankle, just when i felt i could run better he steps on my ankle, and that's only 20 minutes into training, i mean come on what the hell.

Oh wait did i mention his boots are rugby boots, yes METAL STUDS.. There's like scratches on my ankle and some torn skin with a bit of blood oozing out and yeah it's blue black and looks pretty horrible. = |

Occupational Hazard? or Sport Hazard?

Oh and my New Town Shirt got torn! Felt good to be honest to get my shirt torn, i was running with the ball and had myself bent low to avoid any tackles and someone tried and pull me down from the side and ended up rippin my shirt.

But that's okay :)

Plate Champions kay M.I. !

U 20- Finals Police CUP.

KGO

Emptiness

I don't know how common this is, but for me, the main problem is that I feel
disconnected from everyone and everything.

I have a few people out there who I care about, or who care about me, but no real
intimacy with anyone. Worse yet, this is a long term pattern with me, it's been going on
for enough years yet that it's quite possible I will be alone for the rest of my life.

This totally sucks.

I would like to have friends I could be truly close to, someone that I could be in love
with, but I'm psychologically fucked up enough that I don't know how to make this
happen.

I like to think that if I had love and intimacy in my life, life wouldn't suck nearly as much.

And hell, I think I've reached the point where I'm jealous of cult members. Those poor
deluded fuckers who shave their heads and dance around in public begging for
donations, or the heaven's gate suicide cult, at least they have a sense of purpose, of
belonging. They must have a sense of devotion for their beloved cult leaders.

Is there any way to have meaning in your life when you're disconnected from everyone?
I don't think so.

I'd choose you.

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Sahdique Caubang Ray You’re hotter than Charizard, you’re an electric charge to me more than Pikachu and I think we connect with each other more than Magnemite. You make my heart explode like Voltorb and you shine more than Steelix. Please hypnotize me like Alakazam, because I want to be with you in the air like Pidgeotto and when I see you it’s like you catch me in one of Jigglypuff’s songs. If you were a Pokemon I’d choose you.

Tuesday, May 4, 2010

the post below me has strong homosexual content

Monday, May 3, 2010

War of my life

Come out Angels
Come out Ghosts
Come out Darkness
Bring everyone you know

I'm not running
I'm not scared
I am waiting and well prepared

I'm in the war of my life
At the door of my life
Out of Time and theres no where to run away

I've got a hammer
And a heart of glass
I got to know right now
Which walls to smash

I got a pocket
Got no pill
If fear hasn't killed me yet
Than nothing will

All the suffering
And all the pain
Never liked to label

I'm in the war of my life.

Ruth Yee

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