crumbling

i make things hard for myself. 

i am to blame, my expectations my hopes my dreams.

i desire much i want it all.

i am not who i have set out to be.

if one day, you wake up to find me missing without a trace,

Know that i did it only because i pushed myself too far.

For fear of failing, I've chosen to leave. 

I am not who i have set out to be.

My actions would suggest much, but i'm not that man.

Merely a lost soul, trapped in a black hole.

A little boy in the body of a full grown man.

The thing about regret, i have much.

I am not who i have set out to be. 

I am bold.

This monster wants quits, 

time out, i need a break. 

please don't hate. 

i will bend and i will break. 

I'm sorry I am not who i have set out to be.