What a fucking shame

It's such a shame you don't know what you're running away from.
You have no idea how much i have for you
I'd lie to show you if you'll just give me the chance.
I'd like to tell you so many things
But you won't let me.
I have nothing left to lose now anyway, the damage has been done.

I dread the opening of schools not because i fear the exams
I fear you
I fear meeting you
I fear seeing your face
I fear listening to your voice
I fear staring at you again
I fear walking with you
I fear sitting with you during reccess
I fear talking to you
I fear you ignoring me
I fear your laughter
I fear you


Yes i'm a pussy cause i'm afraid of you. I'm afraid of your beauty
I'm afraid of perfection in my eyes.
I fear everything there is about you
I don't think I'll ever overcome this fear
Fuck you!

Chat Box

6:14am
Cannot sleep.
Cannot sleep.
Keep thinking about life.

Chatbox for you guys

I feel like i'm on fire but i'm too shy to cry for help.
Really, I can't stand the thought of me being so full of emotions it's like me being full of shit.
Cause that's what i probably am anyway, Full of fucking shit.
I'd stuff my face in poo poo and i'd prolly think i'm still fucking great.
I'm delusional and hollow.

We might as well be fucking strangers.
I don't even fucking know who you are anymore?
We don't even fucking talk properly.
I don't know your fucking thoughts at all.
I've always wanted to know you better, you never fucking gave me the chance.
So what else is there still to fucking hold on.
I never really fucking meant a single thing to you in the first place.
You're just a fucking heartless beauty.
I look to you and you turn the other way.
I call for you and you run away.
Why turn the other cheek?
When all i wanted was to make you happy to see you fucking happy.
But at what expense? At the cost of my fucking happiness?
Fucking hell, if only you know how much fucking damage you've caused.
Time won't fucking heal this damage anymore.
This shit is permanent.
I'm scarred for life.




Fuck, i'm not fucking happy.

Prom Night

Untagged every single photo of me at Prom Night cause they were really bad.
Here's one for memory sake.
Old times ftw.

Like what i told Kristie and Tariful today, I would rather do another 5 more years of Secondary School Education just to obtain a degree cause i'd rather be with my group of friends and people that i know i can always depend on and relate with. Unlike what's going on in MI, honestly there's no one i can say i'm close to at all. And the only few people i can talk to are in different classes.

ATTN SEEKER

No, I'm not a attention Seeker. I am not. I swear.
Really i'm not.

Just took a test.

Disorder	Rating
Paranoid:	Low
Schizoid:	Low
Schizotypal:	Moderate
Antisocial:	High
Borderline:	Low
Histrionic:	High
Narcissistic:	High
Avoidant:	Low
Dependent:	Low
Obsessive-Compulsive:	High
-- Personality Disorder Test -- -- Personality Disorder Information --

I answered this as honestly as i could and this is what i got? What the Fuck, for real?

What is Histrionic Personality Disorder?
Quick Summary:
People with histrionic personality disorder are constant attention seekers. They need to be the center of attention all the time, often interrupting others in order to dominate the conversation. They use grandiose language to discribe everyday events and seek constant praise. They may dress provacatively or exaggerate illnesses in order to gain attention. Histrionics also tend to exaggerate friendships and relationships, believing that everyone loves them. They are often manipulative.

This i must admit is true. Every single line!

Quick Summary:
Narcissistic personality disorder is characterized by self-centeredness. Like histrionic disorder, people with this disorder seek attention and praise. They exaggerate their achievements, expecting others to recongize them as being superior. They tend to be choosy about picking friends, since they believe that not just anyone is worthy of being their friend. Narcissists tend to make good first impressions, yet have difficulty maintaining long-lasting relationships. They are generally uninterested in the feelings of others and may take advantage of them.

Symptoms of Narcissistic Personality Disorder:
Requires excessive praise and admiration
Takes advantage of others
Grandiose sense of self-importance
Lack of empathy
Lying, to self and others
Obsessed with fantasies of fame, power, or beauty

Louis Lim T.C.

I can't see nobody

Iwalk the lonely streets 
I watch the people passing by
I used to smile and say hello 
guess I was just a happy guy
Then you happened, girl 
this feeling that posessses me
I just can't move myself 
I guess it all just had to be

I can't see nobody
No I can't see nobody
My eyes can only look at you, you

I used to have a brain 
I used to think of many things
I watched the falling rain and 
listened to the sweet birds sing
Don't ask me why, little girl 
I love you and that's all I can say
You're every every breath I take
You are my nights, my night and day


Every single word you hear
is coming from this heart of mine
I never felt like this before
a love like yours so young and fine
And now as I try to forget you
it doesn't work out any way
I loved you such a long time ago
but in my eyes you'll always be

Every single word you hear
is coming from this heart of mine
I loved you such a long time ago
don't know why
And I don't know why, baby