So Close!

 I was so close to telling her how i felt about her today. We were all sitting together on the same row and i was talking about relationships with my other friend when she asked me Who i liked?. I was dumbstruck lol, totally didn't know what to say but i tried to keep a straight face and told her i couldn't tell lol. It'd be akward was all i could say. ):

I just can't tell you, i'm really sorry i wanted to but i didn't know if that was a wise decision, just in case you didn't feel the same way i did. It could be a hint thou, lol i don't know i hope it was. i really do.    

Remember when i caught your eye
You gave me rainbows and butterflies
We did enjoy a happiness When our love was over
I was such a mess

I smiled at you And you smiled back
That's when i knew There's no turning back.

You're in my mind
You're in my heart
I wish i knew right from the start.
All my friends said You'd break my heart.
A heartbreaker right from the start.

I tried to fight it
I tried so hard
And everyday i prayed to god
That you and me
Were meant to be
But you had another
You had a lover.

And now it's dark
I don't know why
I feel like crying
Just want to die
I can't look at you
And you know why
Though i tried so hard
To catch your eye.

Commitment, Rugby

Lol, I was totally soaked up in MUD Today. Literally a mud bath. Covered from top to toe with warm fresh mud water and boots soaked with water. Sweat and grass pieces, covered any visible part of my body.
So A Divisions' coming up in a week and i'm putting in all my best just to show these guys i'm more than just a big lump of flesh who's only job is to tackle.

OMEN

The writings on the wall, it won't go away. It's an Omen

There's a reason why i've made my blog private.

It's private for a reason.
Being in a new environment and having different people around me its dawned on me that i can't behave the way i used to before ( lolcaptainobvious). So things i post here might be offensive to certain people and i don't want hurting anyones feelings. Plus this blog has like a ton of heavy history some people should not know. Some things can only be told in time and at the moment its too early to let anyone know about my past.

:)

Sometimes i wonder where am i in your life? Am i of any significance at all to you? Sure we talk a lot and chill out together during breaks and such but who exactly am i to you? A good friend? Just a friend? Or someone special? Cos to me you play a huge role in my school and outside life. I think about you a lot, even when i don't see you. School's more enjoyable whenever you're around. Your smile, your laughter the cheerfulness in your eyes and how pure you are. Occasionally i'd look at you through the corner of my wandering eyes, hoping you would notice that i have feelings for you. I really would like to tell you how i feel about you but i am afraid it might ruin our friendship and i don't want that to happen. If we have to stay as friends just so i can be around you and hear your voice and talk to you then let it be. I'd rather much prefer that. Yes i do.

IN FOR THE KILL.!

andrew yeo. says:
*lol
Eternal ruler says:
*LOOOOL
andrew yeo. says:
*i lol=ed damn hard.
[Ray(W)]       D; says:
*when i am an old man
*and live by the sea
*will all your thoughts fly to me?
*as much as i want you
*i can't hold on to you
*when will you return to your old home again?
*may love lie around you
*good fortunes surround you
*you know where to turn to
*when you need a friend
andrew yeo. says:
*you need someone to suck your dick.
[Ray(W)]       D; says:
*exactly.
andrew yeo. says:
*how about.
*jeevata.
[Ray(W)]       D; says:
*black monyet? eww fuck no mate.
*LOL THIS IS FUNNY.
Eternal ruler says:
*who
*is that girl
*who u said
*she has nice legs
*the indian
andrew yeo. says:
*jeeveta.
*indians legs are all sticks.
[Ray(W)]       D; says:
*wasn;t her that was khema
andrew yeo. says:
*k-mart.

how

So i really really do like her, but how am i going to tell her.