I couldn’t give a damn whether the chicken or the egg came to existence
first.
My inquiry is along the line of colors, fruits and the meaning of life.
Surprisingly I have found an interesting liaison concatenating these three
elements.

Consider the orange fruit. The flagrant joyous delicacy that flourishes
within the trees of Florida and is encapsulated within crates on the
doorsteps of the people in america each winter. Perfectly orbed, as if it was the
emanation of a master meatball roller, the orange fruit is a gem amongst the
fallible bananas, mangos and apples of the times.

There is no question about the consummate and old reliable orange fruit. It
is round. You can count on it. Underneath the barrier of the orange fruits
contemptible peel, the corpulent segments of the bountiful globe are genial
and relishing... Hence, I perceive the orange fruit as an
excellence in its kind. In delineating this fruit I cannot help but come
across a conundrum of question to the color of the orange fruit. Seventy-two out of
Eighty people commuting the streets of Orchard Road on a given Saturday
afternoon will agree that the color of the orange fruit is, infact, the color
“orange.”

Did the color orange exist before the orange fruit came to exist? Let us
say that the color of orange existed first. Some plant germinating science
freak of 9999BC colors the Purple Fruit a shade of orange... therefore it
shall be christened “Orange Fruit.” Or on the opposition, let us say that there was
a Special Fruit. A man discovered that his neighbors face was the color of the
Special Fruit. The Special Fruit’s color was named Orange after the neighbor,

Mr. Gregory Orange. The name of the Special Fruit was gradually conceived
from the name of Mr. Gregory Orange because, hey, the fruit is orange just
like his face.

Where ever did the color and fruit cross? Was it so simple as a
misunderstanding and mocking of a certain Mr. Gregory Orange? Surely
there is a purpose for the two elements to be so intertwined in one another's
meanings. For the fruit and the color shall ever be cooperatively defined as:
A reddish-yellow color. That is all.

Classrooms become fashion shows where meaningless discussions of
music, sports and entertainment proliferate. Hallways become brutal
canvases where the self-proclaimed “incrowd” can paint a masterpiece of
cruelty and ostracization with fear of receiving the same type of contempt,
prejudice, violence, anger. One must contend with the fact that they are
fruitless, burdensome and useless in a world of beautiful, happy people.

I am merely a pawn, a stepping stone, that is used for others triump hant parades.
Sometimes we have to find out for ourselves who we are. Existing is
not enough. We must question our purpose. For it is not until then that we
know what we ought to do. Any Orange Fruit certainly has a lot of thinking
to do as to it’s own purpose, as it’s identity is stolen by a member of the
prism. As I sit and watch life through a looking glass I question: Did I
bring life or did life bring me? Which came first... Me or Life? And where ever
was the point that the two of us crossed? ... I do not recall any instances.

haha look at the time..
super late eh? well this is how it's been so far during the holidays.. work in the day gaming at night.. Rest for a couple of hours before going back to whatever i'm supposed to be doing.
[PC SHOW]
Recently i've been to the PC show in Suntec City twice so far, once with khamin which was on the 2nd day and with my mom on the last day. Loads of cheap memory cards and computer stuff. I bought a 2.1 Speaker for my room and a Razer Mouse + ExactMat free. My dad bought a 32" LCD Tv and a Home theatre system for my mom as her birthday gift..
[Mom's Birthday]
Oh yeah talking bout my mom's birthday! It's her birthday today :P I'd like to wish her a Happy Birthday and i apologise for all the nasty things i'v done to you and all the things that i've done that has brought our family down.. Nothing will ever bring us back to our previous lifestyle but let bygones be bygones. Hopefully things MIGHT change for the better. I honestly love you and i really don't wanna see you angry with me all the time. You get angry for all the small things but it means a whole lot of a deal for u.. Happy Birthday
[Holidays]
Holidays, my dad's suppose to bring us out on a road trip to Malaysia, for the first time in my life im going somewhere either than Kuala Lumpur and Johor.. But apparently, my dad dosen't know how to drive to Malaysia and he's certainly not gonna ask anyone else to drive our car! Especially in Malaysia.. Life's a bitch eh? now we'll probably go by the stinking bus.
[Grades]
I haven't really been studying lately nor thinking bout my homework and revision.. My grades are really dissapointing for the first time in my life i haven't reached at least the top 5 in level and class.. It's realy dissapointing.. But i shouldn't be surprised cos at the rate that i'm going with my gaming addiction i'm bound to go Poly and not JC. Gotta put more effort in that.
[LOVE]
haha you know i've got something to admit.. I loved Rebecca.. kk there's a ed in there! I thought we had something special but apparently she just wanted to be friends well its okay! :D She's not the type who looks at someone's inner self but she's more focused on first impression. Seriously.. i hate it when i just don't do all those romantic stuff girls expect of you when ur crushing on them.. Well I'm starting to move on with life, she hasn't talked to me much lately and i don't think she'll want to. She's probably stopped looking at my blog so its kinda' safe i guess to say this " I REALLY LOVED YOU!"


Let's go to the park
I wanna kiss you underneath the stars
Maybe we'll go too far
We just don't care
You know I love it when you're loving me
Sometimes it's better when it's publicly
I'm not ashamed I don't care who sees
Us hugging and kissing; our love exhibition, oh.
We'll rendezvous out on the fire escape
I'd like to set off an alarm today
The love emergency, don't make me wait
Just follow I'll lead you
I urgently need you, oh.
If we keep up all this fooling around
We'll be the talk of the town
I'll show the world all my love anytime
Let's open the blinds
'Cause we really don't mind.
Oh, I don't care about propriety
Let's break the rules; ignore society
Maybe our neighbours like to spy, it's true
So what if they watch when we do what we do, oh.

i've got sore eyes.. pass keeps coming out
my mouth is full of phlem. I've got green mucus
The pain in my head is painstaking. I scream in agony when i cough
I've got a fever with sore eyes and a sore throat..


I'm sitting here playing World OF wARcRAFT


DICK HAS OFFICIALY NO FUCKING LIFE.:D
Thanks to WORLD OF WARCAFT
May many more people be addicted to this fucking game

I’m sick of picking the pieces
And second-guessing
My reasons why you don’t trust me
why must we do this to one another?
We are just passionate lovers
With trouble under the covers
Nothing worse than when
You know that it’s over
I just need a little of your time
A little of your time
To say the words I never said
Just need a little of your time
A little of your time
To show you that I am not dead
Please don’t leave, stay in bed
Touch my body instead
Gonna make you feel it
Can you still feel it?
Gonna make you feel it
Can you still feel it?
Well I’ve got nothing to hide
Dip down and come for a ride
I’m racing the devil, so sly
You cannot hear’em coming
Cause my defenses are weak
I have no breath left to speak
So take the evidence
And bury it somewhere
Oh my, I don’t mind
Being the other guy
Nice try, for these games
I do not have the time
If you want me, call me
Come and take a risk
Kiss me somewhere deep below the surface

iT'S NOT my fault! u both deserve it. i caught u with another 1 in my bed...

My dad has to know how much i love him.. I cry everytime he'd leave the house. I crawl up to him and pull his pants, begging him not to leave that was when i was young..Nowadays i'd just say.."So fast? You're leaving so soon?" I'm used to it.. I don't feel anything, I'm just numb. He used to give me reasons like i've got to go do my night shift and say stuff like he works as a security guard. i'd ask him why he had to when he's already leading a good life and working so hard in the day.He'd just brush me off and make me forget about it. Now I've grown up and know the reason why..

How can he put his other family and job infront of me? I feel like dirt.. I'm not treated equally.. Yeah he spends loads of money on me but i just dont want money. I want a father figure. sumone i'd look up to..

You must think I'm a fool
So prosaic and awkward and all
D'you think you've got me down?
D'you think I've never been out of this town?

Do I seem too eager to please to you now?
You don't know me at all
I can't turn it on, turn it off like you now
I'm not like you now

Now you're here
I bet you're wishing you could disappear
I'm trying to be kind
I get the feeling you're just killing time

You look down on me
Don't you look down on me now
You don't know me at all
A slap in the face
In the face for you now
Just might do now

You're leaving so soon
Never had a chance to bloom
But you were so quick
To change your tune
Don't look back
If I'm a weight around your neck
Cos if you don't need me
I don't need you

I recieved my pay today from my dad. but he still didn't give me exactly what i required.How typical of him? I've been working my ass of these past 2 days.. and working for a bloody low pay..
$20 per day
no lunch
no break
11am-10pm

........ pathetic!!!
long working hours no break no lunch. but there's tea and hot milo:P well at least i do get money.. getting money from my dad is hard nowadays.. at least i've got $50 now.. + $20 more tommorrow.. as he promised.. (he always breaks his promise)..

well i'll be getting my A Maths exam marks tommorrow and i know im so gonna fail it.. BADLY....haha couldn't even finish solving 1 question :S!!! I'll be using the money to go buy sum hair dye and dye my hair.. can't wait for my natural colour to grow back.. not sure of the colour though probably sumthing brown.. my dadd is so gonna kill me though if he finds out :P i know him!!

I've also got ideas to go ahead and buy a new World OF WarCraft account again. but i dont have a friggin stable internet connection so what's the god damn point?? yeah but i still want wow!! i hunger for wow.. i'll just call starhub next week:S haha
Oh and.. my dad said he's gonna check on my money once in a while. cos he's forbidding me to buy any games.. yeah so im gonna be so screwed if he finds out tat i've got money missing.. It's my own frigging money why the hell is he so kpo!!

I'm really missing the good old days where i would sit on my comp like a fucking zombie and play till night... muahah while listening to stacy orrico's - i'm not missing you.. haha i'd be tottaly engrosed in my WORLD of Warcraft that i actually forget about the world.. i ain't missing it while im in a better world.. :P ( tottaly didnt make sense but what the hell.. as long as it gets out of my head im ok with it)
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pa and internet

GOD the frigging exams are finnaly over!! But i still don't have my iternet? I tried talking to my dad about it yesterday

dick: pa, u know the iternet come back lerh
pa: u called starhub again?
dick: no larh wat for? its alreadi been 4days since the itnernet came back
pa:u called right?
dick:no seriously. ma was usin the laptop then i asked her to try plugin the ethernet wire see if got internet, then got...
pa: when u call?
dick: = =.. but not every website can go.. i cant visit other site except for yahoo.com and msn.com
pa: u better not call im telling you.
dick: why?
pa:so u had the idea to call?
dick: no i never call i swear..
pa: but u had the intention of doing so right
dick: err yeah..
pa: u better not call, i'm going to tell them that i never agreed to connect the internet..
dick: kk
pa: this can become a police case im warning you.. you better not try anything funny
dick: WHAT THE HELL.. OK OK watever

= = so now? how the fuck am i spose to get my iternet???
(i didn't actually spoke that way but u get wat i mean of cos)