Why have you taken away everything i hold dear to me? THIEF!
Why have you destroyed my chance of living? MURDERER!
Why have you forsaken me, brother? BETRAYER!
Why have you denied me? AVARICIOUS!
Why have you? SINNER!
FEAR! How will i cope?
DESPAIR! How can this be?
GUILT! How did i allow him to do it?
RAGE! How will I snuff out the flame of life from you?
I wish i was ignorant, but i see, i see what you did, now i cannot forgive and i cannot live in bliss.
I will become the destroyer to end you.
Monday, April 5, 2010
wherever u are
Cannot sleep. Open your eyes.
Look outside. Tell your goodbyes.
Cannot sleep. Open your eyes.
Look outside. Tell your goodbyes.
And I'll be waiting around your house.
I don't mind waiting around your house.
It doesn't matter where you are.
Someone is there
with you, I fear.
It doesn't matter where you are.
I can't complain.
Ignore the stain.
Look outside. Tell your goodbyes.
Cannot sleep. Open your eyes.
Look outside. Tell your goodbyes.
And I'll be waiting around your house.
I don't mind waiting around your house.
It doesn't matter where you are.
Someone is there
with you, I fear.
It doesn't matter where you are.
I can't complain.
Ignore the stain.
El' puKE
Yesterday, i was discussing ways on how i can impress you and make you fall for me. I felt like the luckiest man on earth, for a good 5 minutes. I literally shouted my lungs out in the street. I felt like i had it. I was reassured. I was convinced that, you were okay with me trying for you. Boy you had me there for a while. I was on cloud 9. Words cannot express how happy i was. I really was.
But seeing you today in school, all quiet. Not sitting next to me. And your silence. You don't look into my eyes anymore. You look away, i know why you look away. You don't want me to think that you are leading me. Yes i know. I understand. And worst of all that message you posted on Facebook. What's that suppose to mean? . Move on? Don't Wait? Is that a NO? It certainly does look like a no. I think its a no. Hey fuck yeah, it is a no. ): U make me sad. You don't know how much hurt you've caused me. My whole day was ruined and fucked up cos of that thing you posted. Why did you maintain a distance from me? Did i do something wrong?
I know, you were not ready to hear it from me. Which is exactly why i have not told you anything yet. So many moments we spent alone together, at the canteen, in the hall, stadium, my house, tennis court. I could have told you how i felt for you but, nay i did not. Cos i knew the time isn't there. The right moment i'm looking for isn't there. I have yet to win your heart, i havge yet to prove my "LOVE" For you. My heart is with you, my soul is with you, my mind is constantly with you. I think of you. Everyday, every dream i have. I see you, i see us. I do not fantasize about your beauty, or what i do to you. but more of what i do with you. That's the thing. I cannot fantasize about girls i truly like. You left a lasting impression on me. You're different. Which is why i didn't tell you. Whyyyyy did you suddenly ask?? What did i do to you to make you ask such a question? LOL. what a question to ask. Thing is why SO SUDDEN, On that day? I didn't do anything to you that day. Why??? =\
Damage control time, i am not ready to give up, but i'm starting to question myself. All that sacrifices i made fo you, was it really worth it? Are you really worth my time?
But seeing you today in school, all quiet. Not sitting next to me. And your silence. You don't look into my eyes anymore. You look away, i know why you look away. You don't want me to think that you are leading me. Yes i know. I understand. And worst of all that message you posted on Facebook. What's that suppose to mean? . Move on? Don't Wait? Is that a NO? It certainly does look like a no. I think its a no. Hey fuck yeah, it is a no. ): U make me sad. You don't know how much hurt you've caused me. My whole day was ruined and fucked up cos of that thing you posted. Why did you maintain a distance from me? Did i do something wrong?
I know, you were not ready to hear it from me. Which is exactly why i have not told you anything yet. So many moments we spent alone together, at the canteen, in the hall, stadium, my house, tennis court. I could have told you how i felt for you but, nay i did not. Cos i knew the time isn't there. The right moment i'm looking for isn't there. I have yet to win your heart, i havge yet to prove my "LOVE" For you. My heart is with you, my soul is with you, my mind is constantly with you. I think of you. Everyday, every dream i have. I see you, i see us. I do not fantasize about your beauty, or what i do to you. but more of what i do with you. That's the thing. I cannot fantasize about girls i truly like. You left a lasting impression on me. You're different. Which is why i didn't tell you. Whyyyyy did you suddenly ask?? What did i do to you to make you ask such a question? LOL. what a question to ask. Thing is why SO SUDDEN, On that day? I didn't do anything to you that day. Why??? =\
Damage control time, i am not ready to give up, but i'm starting to question myself. All that sacrifices i made fo you, was it really worth it? Are you really worth my time?
GOOOOOOOOOOOOOD NEWS.
So i just came back from Soccer, and i HAD SUM RLY GOOD NEWZ FRUM FURQAN LA SIAL!.
Sunday, April 4, 2010
deranged and delusional, i seek you. mushy.
Lol, so much mushyness. I do not know why. Guess its "Attraction". Love is too heavy a word to use. This is what it does to me. I am behaving differently.
=\ I make fun of people who write mushy stuff, now i know whats it like. But hey! Those people do it openly, on facebook or put it on their msn nicks. I do not.. I open a blog, i make it private and i write it here. Where only people i trust, shall see.
=\ I make fun of people who write mushy stuff, now i know whats it like. But hey! Those people do it openly, on facebook or put it on their msn nicks. I do not.. I open a blog, i make it private and i write it here. Where only people i trust, shall see.
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